Monday, November 10, 2008

1. Do you have secrets?
Of course. Plenty :D

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
Yeah.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Waiting since 2 years ago.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
(if only!)
I would build myself a nice pretty house by the beach and then
sleep there, one bugatti veyron, one harley davidson, one suzuki haya :D
maybe I will get some kayaking boats with a good paddle, with all gears also.
Probably invest on stocks (like now, because of global trade.) then give
some money to my mom and maybe start up a philantropic foundation.
not to mention, I want LENSES FOR MY CAMERA! AND BRANDED
WEARS! :D


5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
No, I'm not gay fyi.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loved by someone.

7. Give one reason why you love your significant other.
She understands me, can relate to me, know my temper, shes not
the average typical girl. Thats why she's unique.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I'll continue to wait.

9. What is the first thing you want to do when you're legal?
Driving License!

10. What would you do if your significant other cheats on you?
I'll give my other half another chance to redeem herself, then, if the
cheating thing still persists, I guess its time to say goodbye.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Halfway successful in my career, almost being a father :D

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
SHE, my cliques ( both FHS and lasalle ), family.

13. How many times your heart has been broken?
Handful.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
It varies.

15. What is your favourite colour?
Black, brown, white, red.

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
Seek for opinion from besties.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Yes.
Though will brood over a little while but then, everything's back to normal afterwards.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
I still miss you as ever.

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?
Come on, dont be evil, lemme choose both!
IF, to very worst, 50/50. LOL!

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
Fuck, then do you believe?

5 people to do this survey:
Ken, Qing Wen, Chien Juen, Cindy, Joshie.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

safety kayaker is fun yet tiring D:

As I've stated above on the topic, hehehehe.
Anyway, summarize the whole thing to you guys for
easier reading and not a whole chunk of details.
( no offence to any bloggers )


Yesterday 8th November 08'
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Today was a hell outta crazy night!
Departed from home and out to meet Ivan and Aaron
at Marina Square's Starbucks Cafe? or coffee? LOL.
Challenged on PSP Bomberman and see who's king over there :D
as expected, I'm still the one which dominates them. ;)

Headed for heavy dinner at Long John
as I haven't had my breakfast nor lunch.
Seriously, is there any event for photography?
There's a huge number of people carrying out their
DSLRs! The most impressive ones are the old technologies.
The SLRs! LOL! cool right? :D

Headed straight to Pasir Ris MRT station for us to take
bus 89 which goes to WVCG ( Water Venture Changi ) to stay
overnight at there as there's event tomorrow.
So, before we slept, we played Big 2 // Dai Dee or whatever shit
and wow, my luck is very good in the beginning, but started
to suck once I get over confident in my luck.

I'm sorry, but we're actually gambling. LOL!
Not really gambling as in the sense of playing with money, but
rather, we're playing with push ups! heh.
ok, from a good player till sucked like shit.

Lost over 100+ push ups at the end of the day.

Not really happy with the results, in the end played Blackjack.
I was dominating again, and in the end, i lost 40 pushups in just
ONE ROUND. OH NO!
hahaha. Accumulated till its 65. shit man!
then went to bed :D



Today
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Woke up at 0630, went back to sleep and woke up again at 0730.
Ate few slices of plain prata and changed into my wet attire!
Headed out to sea with my Slaloms with 14 safety kayakers
and there's only 1 "2 star-er" LOL!

The worst shit is that we kayaked acrossed the channel and
then we slacked for an hour.
Talking loads of bullshit here and there, but did received some
information about what exactly is 4 star being conducted ;)

*im tired now, needa type fast and go rest. 1hr more to dinner*

ok, so, first kayak went past us, it was the K2's.
I was expecting to see Iskandar, but well, didnt catch him at
all while I was doing my job. Weird.
Then, there was one capsized kayak, an K1.
We, as safety kayakers, should instruct a capsized victim on
what to do, but instead, this guy which I'm trying to "un-cap" him,
he told me on what to do instead. wtf.

Ok, then in the end, powerboaters called in for my help to ask
all the K1's, K2's, Slaloms and other boats to get away from the
shore and move around the powerboat.
Since I'm trained to shout (thanks to npcc), I shouted at the
top of my lungs and said this :"ALL KAYAKERS, MOVE
AWAY FROM THE SHORE AND GO AROUND THE POWERBOAT!"

yet, some people still ask me :"where should I go?"
TOTALLY W.T.F~!

Ok, job done afterwards. then went back to my club and bathed
and then went home, kinda tiring day, and my neck now is swollen
due to the extreme shoutings ( I shouted alot of times ). I think its because
of the veins or the artery or whatever shit is pissed with me.

OK NIGHTS! 50MINUTES MORE WTF!

Friday, November 7, 2008

fcuk'ed me.

I'm fcuk'ing depressed.
Why?

Not enough time,
not enough words,
not enough motivation,
not enough money (for art),
not enough inspiration,
not enough OF ALOT OF THINGS!

FCUK IT!
No joke, I'm pissed off with alot of things,
people are thinking that I cant perform as well
as the others, but if you guys give me time,
I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT I CAN.
Why does no one believe me that I can do things
wayyyyy better than the others?

Is it because I've slacked too much?
Or I didnt put in much effort?

Come on, I want to improve,
I want to train harder,
I want to grow,
I want to master my techniques,
I want to be motivated.

I do not want to be the last.
I do not want to be the uninspired person.
I do not want to give up.

I NEED TO CARRY ON!

Any motivations?
I found my drive in painting,
I do not know what you guys will think bout this,
and I seriously don't care if you guys are trying to
pull me down or fcuk me upside down ok.


I'll be back to be one of the top again.
Believe me.




v, where'd you go,
i know i cant be strong,
i know im weak.
if you're here with me now,
things would get better and more different.
i still love you as always.
i miss you.