fcuk'ed me.

I'm fcuk'ing depressed.
Why?

Not enough time,
not enough words,
not enough motivation,
not enough money (for art),
not enough inspiration,
not enough OF ALOT OF THINGS!

FCUK IT!
No joke, I'm pissed off with alot of things,
people are thinking that I cant perform as well
as the others, but if you guys give me time,
I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT I CAN.
Why does no one believe me that I can do things
wayyyyy better than the others?

Is it because I've slacked too much?
Or I didnt put in much effort?

Come on, I want to improve,
I want to train harder,
I want to grow,
I want to master my techniques,
I want to be motivated.

I do not want to be the last.
I do not want to be the uninspired person.
I do not want to give up.

I NEED TO CARRY ON!

Any motivations?
I found my drive in painting,
I do not know what you guys will think bout this,
and I seriously don't care if you guys are trying to
pull me down or fcuk me upside down ok.


I'll be back to be one of the top again.
Believe me.




v, where'd you go,
i know i cant be strong,
i know im weak.
if you're here with me now,
things would get better and more different.
i still love you as always.
i miss you.