anger, frustration, bullied, f' the shit.

I have no idea on why people pick on me because of my face.
Maybe of my mentality?
I do not know.


Do I have the 'gangster' look?

Why am I being targeted?

Is people jealous cause of my face w/ no pimples?


Oh come on, do not be such a childish little prick.
Target me or pick on me cause of stupid minor things
when there's much more to do in life than just bullying
others and practically wasting your time on that.

Is it fun to do it?

Last time, I will agree that it is fun, but after growing
more matured over each day, I feel that it is a stupid
thing to pick on others.

I sincerely apologise to those who have been bullied by
me in the past, such as Junde.

Sorry for whacking you during Secondary 4 till your
whole arms and legs were badly bruised and made your
life looks so shitty at the point.

Call me a coward that I, bullied people smaller sized than me.






So, today, I went on a shouting spree in my room, just to vent
all that anger being bottled by these bullies I've met.

Just to say this, next time, if there's another prick wants
to try come pick on me, I doubt I'll hold back.

Save You - Simple Plan

Sometimes I wish I could save you,
and there're so many things I want you to know.
I wont give up till its over.
if it takes you forever,
I want you to know..

i aint grabbing attention.
maybe I am, without knowing that I'm doing it subconciously.

Haiku :(

Tomorrow is a new day of school (indeed).
After skipping one whole week of lessons including
lectures and workshops, I've decided to study with
all my 'remaining' energy, will and determination
and end this torment before April 28th arrives.

Why April 28th?
Due to Lasalle 'exam'.
It is called assessment where everyone's work
will be assessed by the lecturers themselves and give
each and everyone a overall grading.

What are you gonna do since you've slacked for a week
Promises to myself that I will not really engage into
computer games so often for this whole one month
period and concentrate on my own work.

Are you confident in getting promoted to Level 1?
Half-half I guess?
I really got no motivation in doing my work.
I just need time with some of my buddies to clear
the thoughts in my mind.



Well, these are the overall things which I do speak
right from the bottom of my heart.
Kinda what the hell right?
Slack for one whole week.. Clever indeed.
Anyway, lets hope tomorrow will start on my new
project which is called the Specialism project.

Specialism project is kinda weird you know?
I need to do a friggin 1x1m artwork (photograph)
or a size of A1 artwork. This seems easy, but the
requirements is totally INSANE.

I need to show :
30 Thumbnails
20 Photographs of animal details (paws, furs, head, eyes)
10 Black & White DETAILED DRAWINGS of an HYBRID

(Self imposed 'requisite')
5 'Test Print' copies of Final Photograph (A4).
2 Best pieces.
1 Final piece.



Well, hope I execute this well.
And hope all my friends support me in any income or
financial aid :P
hehehe..


Okay, I'm gonna end this post with a simple
poem which I create. Probably a haiku.


Love is such a pain,
but yet I do love that way;
I gained more than that.

Hugs, kiss, that's the best,
Companionship, with the rest,
And I do love her.

the feeling for me to you is this.

Ever thought of building a world to your loved ones?

Ever willing to build the perfect one for the other half?

If you answer to all the questions above as "No".
Then please, do not watch the video I'm about to post
as this is not your type of genre.

This is a special dedication to someone whom I would
love to create the world for her.
Oh well, this is kinda cheezy, but I still, do love you.

Crazy.

Within ourselves lies a drive,
a force that only make sense to us.
It is that force, the drive that can make
a person crazy.

Crazy is only what you make of it.
In the past, most people think
that crazy is a negative thing.

But I repeat, craziness is only
what you make of it.

Craziness is a state of mind which
comprised with desire, anger, knowledge,
courage, fear and devotion.

Crazy makes musician and artists talented.

Crazy makes a dying man take his own life.

Crazy makes a man and a woman to fall in love.

Make what you will of this but I cannot believe
that I would be better off being "sane".

Therefore and I am, and will remain, crazy.

-Marilyn Monroe

clarence says.

i do not dare to sms you.
not to mention just saying
a simple :"hello!".

how fucking pathetic am i?

i just wish things would go back
to the state where we just met.
please baby.


i need and want you more than ever.

imissyou.

Well, there's loads of projects in hand now.
Just cleared a 1000 word essay about the Lumiere Brothers
which they're inventors cum film makers cum physicists.

So, I completed that piece of essay by plagiarism
but just re edit some points and put in some of
my own humble opinion to it. If you guys want the
stupid essay, you can download it here.

Oh shit. Blogger doesn't have that service for me to upload
my file to it.

Crap.

If you guys read my essay, I guarantee you that you will
lmao like hell. no joke. LOL!

Alright then, I think I'm off to BBDC to deposit money.


Ciaos~





I'll never let you fall,
I'll stand up for you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even though saving you will send me to heaven.

this i promise you.