A comeback from non-existence.

Hey guys, how's everyone doing?

Probably been busy with your own school work
or either with relationship.

I'm kinda different, I'm neither busy with my school work
anymore nor busy with a relationship.

School's simple.
Any idea?

I've dropped out of fucking LASALLE.
Unable to do complete my diploma in fine arts with
my fingers and my eyes anymore.
My previous school (LASALLE) is such a whore,
bullied me as if I was back in Secondary School days.

Well well, I couldn't help it but to feel disappointed
in myself due to the fact that I've wasted more than
SGD$13,000 on studies (O's, LASALLE x2) and yet to
clear a diploma.

My dad has been disappointed in me recently,
claiming back my credit card and finally, he submitted in
to his rage, scolded me more than anything I could ever
tolerate.

Whats worse, he said that I'm worse than a dog.

That totally broke my heart, made me lose all the respect
which he gained over the past 20 years of my life.



My life is screwed at that point of life (5 days ago).
I felt homeless, undesired, unloved and screwed
by my family.



Just FYI, this is the first time I had this feeling.


Nevertheless, I'm currently pursuing ANOTHER diploma
which is Business Management in MDIS.
Don't ever judge MDIS as a pathetic institute nor even to listen
to others saying that the certificate is not recognized.
It is recognized so don't worry.

Anyway, I needa sign off now.

Kinda tired after a long day in school with alot of emotions
running through my head.


I do miss everyone here, really.


Clarence

Shrapnels after the explosion.

I FEEL LIKE A SHITZ NAOOOO.
VERY VERY BAD HANGOVER DUE TO CRAZY
AMOUNT OF ALCOHOL INTAKE AND LACK OF SLEEP.

OH MY. THIS SUCKS BIG TIME.



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On the sidenote, yesterday went to St James Power House
and drank like 1283761823961 Gallons of alcohol.
Terribly scary. Why do I do all these?

Its all because of the "Matters of the heart".

So, yeah, I'm having a bad hangover now.

Voodoo-ed King

Yesterday evening, I went out to take some interesting
photographs with my buddy during O's (fyi im a pvt candidate).

We started at Lakeside and ended at Chinese Garden.
Route was Lakeside - Jurong Lake Park - Chinese Garden.

What happened was that I brought my Oakley Oil Rig out
and it went missing while I'm shooting some photos!
HOW COULD IT BE THAT MY OAKLEY WENT MISSING.
After the whole day ended, the bag which I've hooked my
Oakley on is feeling a little weird, its like.. If something is
not there, its weird, I do not know how to comprehend
the feeling of "EH? WHAT DID I FORGET AH?".

Eventually I gave myself a deep thought, and finally
remembered that I dropped my Oakley during a shoot
with Mr. Confucious.

I think he set a voodoo on me, for instance, like creating
a voodoo doll + wallet + oakley, then placing some needles
to poke my wallet and incinerate my Oakley.

Its like WTF?!

Now I needa save money for another Oakley lens
to change into my Radar. Lawlll..

Reminiscenes.

Was talking to AmandaW regarding her relationship stuffs
and well, surprisingly that her guy is one of my friend!

We're like discussing what did they do and etcetera.

Upon hearing all these, some thoughts went into my mind.
Even before all these were spoken, the same old thoughts
came into my mind.

Why was I the one who loses you?
Why didn't I grab it while it can?
Why am I regretting it now?
Why should I even let you go?


Loads of questions in my head
and loads of answers too.

Sigh.
FML.

Failure in Lasalle AGAIN.

Okay, happy things or sad things first?
Make it happy.


HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CINDYK!

Hope everything is going well for you!



Well, relatively, that was the happy thing.
It includes a word "Happy" aint it? :3

Anyway, now for the shitxzxcz.
I've failed Lasalle, again.
You must be wondering
"Why fail again? You've fucking waste so much money
and yet you couldn't pass?"

The failure of my attempts to be successful in passing
this diploma is just some personal reasons.
As some of you guys might be paying attention
to my Facebook status or either MSN personal message,
probably you could spot out some personal emotions.


I'm terribly sorry to my other half as things went this way.
You were too sensitive and that made me go
and too insensitive for my feelings.
You punished every little things which I've done.

This is the most I could tell you guys.


What happen was that during the last 2 days of my
exams or submission; big quarrels occured followed by breakup.
That totally killed my working spirit and there I was,
sitting down infront of my laptop, watching Community
and Big Bang Theory. Just wasting my time off.

I had no mood. Not even a 10% mood was present.

FML.


I just hate girls who is too sensitive about me
and too insensitive about my feelings.



Well, thank you for the past 7 months.
Whether is it good or bad, you're still someone I've been with.

I'm in a critical state of dilemma.

As above stated, I'm really in a state of confusion
which is really screwing my life up now.

Practically and theoretically, I'm stuck with school
and my life is not sailing through a calm seas
but its going through the seven seas with
unexpected weather where I, the captain, didn't
expect the unexpected.

Deep. You may think I am it;
Look over to me, you might find it wrong.

Life is difficult;
I ain't proving it false.
For I am the one,
who is in the mess.
Which I do, never figure this out.

Like a vortex;
My mind swirls and whirls.
Deep thoughts flows
and goes.
May I know where to go?
The answer is yet to unfold.





Okay fuck this piece of shit alright?
FML seriously.
I'm trying to make you guys understand
me in a different manner.
I know, yes, my blog is dead.
Neither I do wanna revive it due to school.

All my thoughts are above there,
where I tried my best to describe it out.
I'm sorry to whoever asked me what is exactly wrong.
However, this is the best I could do, to tell you
what is my heart feels for the current
moment in my life.

I know, life might seem good for me.
Well, thats a false impression.

Those who left me a few years ago,
came back a few weeks ago.
I'm beginning to start doubting
myself for all the things I've done...



If this post confuses you,
I'm terribly sorry.
I just need somewhere to
pour my heart out to.

Thank you reader.

Assault

Clarence was assaulted by 3 assailants after

clubbing at an underage party at St James Powerhouse.

He didn't know it was an underage party though.

After partying, he went out to Vivocity to slack and sort

with his friends, before moving to the spot where

he was assaulted.

After moving off from Vivocity, he and his friends

walked together with another group of people

to the Seah Im Carpark (opposite Vivocity, beside harbourfront

MRT station).

Upon arriving at the location, he sat down by the

kerb and starting chit chatting with his friends.

This place was an crime scene where shortly after

he sat down, the assault took place.

He was punched and kicked onto his face

and neck area.

The aftermath is that Clarence suffered from a

nose bleed, a swollen eye, a busted mouth

and a fucking injured neck.

His Fred Perry Polo Pique was dirtied during

the brawl, and God Damn these kids.

Clarence and co. went to vivo again to sit down

and think of what happened.

It was an assault, maybe a riot.

Afterwards, he cabbed down to Bukit Batok

and lodged a Police report, providing with 100%

accurate details on what had happened.

On the upcoming tuesday, he will be going to

the Subordinate Court of Singapore to file a complaint

against these attackers and to charge them to court

for "Voluntarily Causing Hurt" under

Section 323 of Chapter 224.

Hope this case will bring these fucktards to jail

or either go to RTC (Reformative Training Centre),

hoping that there's also caning included.

Oh well :(

Birthday

Firstly, a big thank you to all these people for

wishing me a happy birthday.

These are in sequence :)

All in 24hrs Format

1) Noelle (0000)
2) Boo (0000)

3) Guo Ren (0000)

4) Xiao Qing (0001)

5) Xuan Zhi (0003)

6) Wan Hao (0005)

7) Zhen Fu ((0008) I know the reason why so late:))

8) Rui Ying (0012)

9) James Chiam (0020)

10) Jolyn Chin (0020)

11) Jenmey (0021)

12) Jia Le ((0034) Thank you blue oyster! <33's>

13) Bryan (0055)

14) Eunice (0129)

15) Ye Kai (0129)

16) Huili (0215)

17) Valerie (0258)

18) Alicia (1246)

19) Richard (1450)

20) Eleonora (1450)

21) Bryan (AGAIN(1450))
22) Nicole (1450)

23) Lester (1451)

24) Raja (1458)
25) Yi Mei (1520)

26) Ivan (1945)

27) Huplian (I forgot timing)

28) Johnathan Edwards (1929)

29) Siew Ting (2016)

30) Michael (2111)

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13/10/2009 BELATED ASSHOLES! :P THANKS ANYWAY!

31) Wilson Lee

32) Yong Cheng

33) Kang Wei

34) Kirsten

35) Brendan

36) En-Lin

Okay, Thanks guys! NO JOKE.

Really appreciated all of your kind, warm wishes

to the ugly BUT adorable boy here.

AHAHAHA WHAT A DOUCHEBAG I AM.

LOL!

Friggin' thick skinned.

Anyway, It's a total of 3 updates to

keep this post going.

Final update already!

and yes: "I wanna thank my mom my dad

my everyone for giving me this award."

Yea yea as if I'm taking the Grammy Awards.

So, a big....

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE AGAIN!

Is this large enough?
Big thank you already aye?
hehe!

Ciao!

&

Cheers.

aniMAIL time!

Bye, Ciao or Cya? Choose one.

Seriously, PLEASE CHOOSE ONE.
AND TAG IT ON MY TAGBOARD.







p.s I totally hate the word bye.
It makes me sound like you're not gonna see me again.

Peace & Serenity

Yesterday was an unusual me.
Temper didn't show at all, nor even my arrogance.
Found out that the world is gracious.
I must go and thank all those who helped
me in everything, and to love them for what they are.

I was lacking of coins for the bus fare,
I kindly requested this ageing guy for just
particularly 10cents.
Not only he gave it to me, but still asked
this :"Boy, you need more? Is it enough?"
I was shy to get more, so I said
:"Uncle, it's okay, thank you very much."

I do not know why I was greeted by
such a nice man, but it's an angel in disguise.
Not those angels with halo, but he is indeed
a Samaritan.

Thank you uncle whom gave me his penny,
I will pray for you in every aspect in life.

Thank you once again.



Crossing the realms of life;
ain't sure what it does nor means.
Cleansing my heart through the rain,
finding peace and meaning out there.
Learning the things which I should absorb;
not pushing the blame but blame oneself.
Peace and serenity is upon my kingdom;
to find it, I must seek for it.

Rants, rants and more rants.

I'm like a fuse.
My ampere is lower than the current;
blows up when the current is too strong to handle.

I'm an "ah beng", a Singapore gangster.
This is what people deemed me as.
Condemned, punished, humiliated and framed.
What's more?
Life has been condemned by such idiots.

Stress in Lasalle.
A on going thing; making me sick.
People can handle the stress, but it ain't me.

I'm not a saint nor a deviant.
Neither am I Satan nor Lucifer.
Do not judge me by looks.

I may be friendly; scary too.
How you perceive, is judgement.
Till you know me better, then judge once more.

National Day

Don't you guys love national day?

I mean, its like 09/08.

Such numbers is like so cool right?

08/08. Cool?
Not really, like so fengshui type.

Wanna prosperous?

Start a business on that day.

Wanna earn big bucks or have good luck?

Go pray on that day and buy big sweep.

So lame man.

Anyway, I'm now ranting so much as I'm kinda

feeling depressed. As usual?

Maybe.

There's something missing.

The missing piece.

The lost puzzle which ran away.

Took off and flew to Vietnam.

October 31st, the particular missing piece

will come back, and complete this puzzle once again.

Hope to see you soon boo.

it all started out with a hug.

As stated above.

Boo going to Vietnam soon,
I'm quitting work soon.
Working on anger after Boo comes
back from Vietnam.
Tomorrow I'm attending school (like finally).

Traffic Police dropped charges on me.
Finally met up with Ken and Joshua.
Watched The Hangover (4/5 stars for me).
UOB Credit Card attained.
9/8/09 started.

I'm just over the moon :)

fuck friendlyfire. fuck it.

holy sh*t.

God damn it.
How many times must I lose my bloody Oakley?
Holy crap.

Now, I didnt lose it while I'm on the sea, but
I've lost it whilst moving my house.
What a loser I am man.

Another $200++ gone to the moving house account.
Basket. I'm so so so GOD DAMN FURIOUS NOW.
f..

Total Oakley's lost = 4
Total Amount lost = SGD $1.2k
Time lost = 1-2 months interval per Oakley.



Damn...
How unlucky I could get?
GOD DAMN UNLUCKY.
HOHOHO PIECE OF SHIT.

I can't believe it,
How could I lose something when it is in
my house and no one took it?
Which bloody mutha f***er took it?
I HAVE NO GOD DAMN IDEA.

BOOHOO!
MY MONEY IS GONE!
NOT ANOTHER OAKLEY :(



Anyway, I'll be shooting a international
model at some place which I need to reconfirm
again. Hope the results I took is gonna be
appealing or I could just jump down to death.




I'm missing someone :/

Circuit 5.02 Assessment.

Gonna go my assessment for biking
later on. Hope everything goes out
smoothly but with a tinge of fun and
a little bit of seriousness.

LETS HOPE I WONT CRASH AGAIN. LOL!

Why did I crash?
I was looking down at the kerb whilst
doing my s-course. Lost control of the
bike and mounted on a kerb, hence lost
balance and crashed on the road.


Anyway, just not long ago, I quit
Lasalle due to stress and some stuffs
which overloaded me. Thats why I failed :/


sigh, fucked.

moved house and sorts.

As above stated.
Now moved to Woodlands.
No idea on what the hell is
this street and stuff but its a
10-15 minutes walk from Woodland
MRT Station to the apartment.

Oh well, after few months or so,
I'll be moving back to Jurong,
but no idea where :/

Most 'prolly' is at Jurong West Extension
there? I have no idea.

Damn..



How I wish that my previous house
aint sold. Nowadays I'm still going back
to Jurong West to slack and eat,
kinda miss the places and food.

I can't accustom to the things at
Woodlands.

The feeling is shitty :/



Anyway, I'll be completing my biking
by the max.. September?
If I were to say roughly when..
I would predict that its near
the end of September or mid September.

Hope by then, I'll have enough/adequate
money to get my bike.

$6000 SGD for this




















ciao!

random.

Well well, this is the 2008 Suzuki Hayabusa.
The chinese encoding on the fairing means
"Falcon" or "Japanese Falcon" or something
in similar.

It is currently the fastest bike,
Made in Japan,
Pwned Italian bikes like Ducati
or other continental brands like
BMW and etc.

How great can this be?
I let you guys decide.

Top speed 370kmph (record).
0-100kmph in 3 seconds.
Cool?

Yeah.

Class 2B License

I'm getting my Class 2B License now

and finally my mom let me go with it.

I know the hazards of biking and everything

when its on the road as I've been driving for

the past 2 months.

Lets state the pros and cons.

Pros

No jams during traffic jams.

Versatile

Fast acceleration

Simple designs

Cons

No air-cond

No shelter

Prone to danger

Noisy

Unable to start whilst cold days

So, after all these thoughts, I'm still going

for it! Cause I wanna get a big bike, not

a normal 2B only.

Aiming for Suzuki Hayabusa or a sport tourer

when I got my Class 2 Bike!

Gonna learn my bike at 4PM today!

Take care guys :/