deadstrength

A comeback from non-existence.

2010-08-19T20:25:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, how's everyone doing?

Probably been busy with your own school work
or either with relationship.

I'm kinda different, I'm neither busy with my school work
anymore nor busy with a relationship.

School's simple.
Any idea?

I've dropped out of fucking LASALLE.
Unable to do complete my diploma in fine arts with
my fingers and my eyes anymore.
My previous school (LASALLE) is such a whore,
bullied me as if I was back in Secondary School days.

Well well, I couldn't help it but to feel disappointed
in myself due to the fact that I've wasted more than
SGD$13,000 on studies (O's, LASALLE x2) and yet to
clear a diploma.

My dad has been disappointed in me recently,
claiming back my credit card and finally, he submitted in
to his rage, scolded me more than anything I could ever
tolerate.

Whats worse, he said that I'm worse than a dog.

That totally broke my heart, made me lose all the respect
which he gained over the past 20 years of my life.

My life is screwed at that point of life (5 days ago).
I felt homeless, undesired, unloved and screwed
by my family.

Just FYI, this is the first time I had this feeling.

Nevertheless, I'm currently pursuing ANOTHER diploma
which is Business Management in MDIS.
Don't ever judge MDIS as a pathetic institute nor even to listen
to others saying that the certificate is not recognized.
It is recognized so don't worry.

Anyway, I needa sign off now.

Kinda tired after a long day in school with alot of emotions
running through my head.

I do miss everyone here, really.

Clarence

Shrapnels after the explosion.

2010-04-15T14:10:00.003+08:00

I FEEL LIKE A SHITZ NAOOOO.
VERY VERY BAD HANGOVER DUE TO CRAZY
AMOUNT OF ALCOHOL INTAKE AND LACK OF SLEEP.

OH MY. THIS SUCKS BIG TIME.

__________________________________________

On the sidenote, yesterday went to St James Power House
and drank like 1283761823961 Gallons of alcohol.
Terribly scary. Why do I do all these?

Its all because of the "Matters of the heart".

So, yeah, I'm having a bad hangover now.

Voodoo-ed King

2010-03-28T05:52:00.002+08:00

Yesterday evening, I went out to take some interesting
photographs with my buddy during O's (fyi im a pvt candidate).

We started at Lakeside and ended at Chinese Garden.
Route was Lakeside - Jurong Lake Park - Chinese Garden.

What happened was that I brought my Oakley Oil Rig out
and it went missing while I'm shooting some photos!
HOW COULD IT BE THAT MY OAKLEY WENT MISSING.
After the whole day ended, the bag which I've hooked my
Oakley on is feeling a little weird, its like.. If something is
not there, its weird, I do not know how to comprehend
the feeling of "EH? WHAT DID I FORGET AH?".

Eventually I gave myself a deep thought, and finally
remembered that I dropped my Oakley during a shoot
with Mr. Confucious.

I think he set a voodoo on me, for instance, like creating
a voodoo doll + wallet + oakley, then placing some needles
to poke my wallet and incinerate my Oakley.

Its like WTF?!

Now I needa save money for another Oakley lens
to change into my Radar. Lawlll..

Reminiscenes.

2010-03-26T17:57:00.002+08:00

Was talking to AmandaW regarding her relationship stuffs
and well, surprisingly that her guy is one of my friend!

We're like discussing what did they do and etcetera.

Upon hearing all these, some thoughts went into my mind.
Even before all these were spoken, the same old thoughts
came into my mind.

Why was I the one who loses you?
Why didn't I grab it while it can?
Why am I regretting it now?
Why should I even let you go?

Loads of questions in my head
and loads of answers too.

Sigh.
FML.

Failure in Lasalle AGAIN.

2010-03-24T23:38:00.002+08:00

Okay, happy things or sad things first?
Make it happy.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CINDYK!

Hope everything is going well for you!

Well, relatively, that was the happy thing.
It includes a word "Happy" aint it? :3

Anyway, now for the shitxzxcz.
I've failed Lasalle, again.
You must be wondering
"Why fail again? You've fucking waste so much money
and yet you couldn't pass?"

The failure of my attempts to be successful in passing
this diploma is just some personal reasons.
As some of you guys might be paying attention
to my Facebook status or either MSN personal message,
probably you could spot out some personal emotions.

I'm terribly sorry to my other half as things went this way.
You were too sensitive and that made me go
and too insensitive for my feelings.
You punished every little things which I've done.

This is the most I could tell you guys.

What happen was that during the last 2 days of my
exams or submission; big quarrels occured followed by breakup.
That totally killed my working spirit and there I was,
sitting down infront of my laptop, watching Community
and Big Bang Theory. Just wasting my time off.

I had no mood. Not even a 10% mood was present.

FML.

I just hate girls who is too sensitive about me
and too insensitive about my feelings.

Well, thank you for the past 7 months.
Whether is it good or bad, you're still someone I've been with.

I'm in a critical state of dilemma.

2010-03-08T17:50:00.003+08:00

As above stated, I'm really in a state of confusion
which is really screwing my life up now.

Practically and theoretically, I'm stuck with school
and my life is not sailing through a calm seas
but its going through the seven seas with
unexpected weather where I, the captain, didn't
expect the unexpected.

Deep. You may think I am it;
Look over to me, you might find it wrong.

Life is difficult;
I ain't proving it false.
For I am the one,
who is in the mess.
Which I do, never figure this out.

Like a vortex;
My mind swirls and whirls.
Deep thoughts flows
and goes.
May I know where to go?
The answer is yet to unfold.

Okay fuck this piece of shit alright?
FML seriously.
I'm trying to make you guys understand
me in a different manner.
I know, yes, my blog is dead.
Neither I do wanna revive it due to school.

All my thoughts are above there,
where I tried my best to describe it out.
I'm sorry to whoever asked me what is exactly wrong.
However, this is the best I could do, to tell you
what is my heart feels for the current
moment in my life.

I know, life might seem good for me.
Well, thats a false impression.

Those who left me a few years ago,
came back a few weeks ago.
I'm beginning to start doubting
myself for all the things I've done...

If this post confuses you,
I'm terribly sorry.
I just need somewhere to
pour my heart out to.

Thank you reader.

Assault

2009-10-18T06:17:00.002+08:00

Clarence was assaulted by 3 assailants after

clubbing at an underage party at St James Powerhouse.

He didn't know it was an underage party though.

After partying, he went out to Vivocity to slack and sort

with his friends, before moving to the spot where

he was assaulted.

After moving off from Vivocity, he and his friends

walked together with another group of people

to the Seah Im Carpark (opposite Vivocity, beside harbourfront

MRT station).

Upon arriving at the location, he sat down by the

kerb and starting chit chatting with his friends.

This place was an crime scene where shortly after

he sat down, the assault took place.

He was punched and kicked onto his face

and neck area.

The aftermath is that Clarence suffered from a

nose bleed, a swollen eye, a busted mouth

and a fucking injured neck.

His Fred Perry Polo Pique was dirtied during

the brawl, and God Damn these kids.

Clarence and co. went to vivo again to sit down

and think of what happened.

It was an assault, maybe a riot.

Afterwards, he cabbed down to Bukit Batok

and lodged a Police report, providing with 100%

accurate details on what had happened.

On the upcoming tuesday, he will be going to

the Subordinate Court of Singapore to file a complaint

against these attackers and to charge them to court

for "Voluntarily Causing Hurt" under

Section 323 of Chapter 224.

Hope this case will bring these fucktards to jail

or either go to RTC (Reformative Training Centre),

hoping that there's also caning included.

Oh well :(

Birthday

2009-10-12T03:05:00.002+08:00

Firstly, a big thank you to all these people for

wishing me a happy birthday.

These are in sequence :)

All in 24hrs Format

1) Noelle (0000)
2) Boo (0000)

3) Guo Ren (0000)

4) Xiao Qing (0001)

5) Xuan Zhi (0003)

6) Wan Hao (0005)

7) Zhen Fu ((0008) I know the reason why so late:))

8) Rui Ying (0012)

9) James Chiam (0020)

10) Jolyn Chin (0020)

11) Jenmey (0021)

12) Jia Le ((0034) Thank you blue oyster! <33's>

13) Bryan (0055)

14) Eunice (0129)

15) Ye Kai (0129)

16) Huili (0215)

17) Valerie (0258)

18) Alicia (1246)

19) Richard (1450)

20) Eleonora (1450)

21) Bryan (AGAIN(1450))
22) Nicole (1450)

23) Lester (1451)

24) Raja (1458)
25) Yi Mei (1520)

26) Ivan (1945)

27) Huplian (I forgot timing)

28) Johnathan Edwards (1929)

29) Siew Ting (2016)

30) Michael (2111)

_________________________________

13/10/2009 BELATED ASSHOLES! :P THANKS ANYWAY!

31) Wilson Lee

32) Yong Cheng

33) Kang Wei

34) Kirsten

35) Brendan

36) En-Lin

Okay, Thanks guys! NO JOKE.

Really appreciated all of your kind, warm wishes

to the ugly BUT adorable boy here.

AHAHAHA WHAT A DOUCHEBAG I AM.

LOL!

Friggin' thick skinned.

Anyway, It's a total of 3 updates to

keep this post going.

Final update already!

and yes: "I wanna thank my mom my dad

my everyone for giving me this award."

Yea yea as if I'm taking the Grammy Awards.

So, a big....

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE AGAIN!

Is this large enough?
Big thank you already aye?
hehe!

Ciao!

Cheers.

aniMAIL time!

2009-09-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

Bye, Ciao or Cya? Choose one.

2009-09-09T02:04:00.000+08:00

Seriously, PLEASE CHOOSE ONE.
AND TAG IT ON MY TAGBOARD.

p.s I totally hate the word bye.
It makes me sound like you're not gonna see me again.

Peace & Serenity

2009-09-06T15:27:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was an unusual me.
Temper didn't show at all, nor even my arrogance.
Found out that the world is gracious.
I must go and thank all those who helped
me in everything, and to love them for what they are.

I was lacking of coins for the bus fare,
I kindly requested this ageing guy for just
particularly 10cents.
Not only he gave it to me, but still asked
this :"Boy, you need more? Is it enough?"
I was shy to get more, so I said
:"Uncle, it's okay, thank you very much."

I do not know why I was greeted by
such a nice man, but it's an angel in disguise.
Not those angels with halo, but he is indeed
a Samaritan.

Thank you uncle whom gave me his penny,
I will pray for you in every aspect in life.

Thank you once again.

Crossing the realms of life;
ain't sure what it does nor means.
Cleansing my heart through the rain,
finding peace and meaning out there.
Learning the things which I should absorb;
not pushing the blame but blame oneself.
Peace and serenity is upon my kingdom;
to find it, I must seek for it.

Rants, rants and more rants.

2009-09-05T12:31:00.000+08:00

I'm like a fuse.
My ampere is lower than the current;
blows up when the current is too strong to handle.

I'm an "ah beng", a Singapore gangster.
This is what people deemed me as.
Condemned, punished, humiliated and framed.
What's more?
Life has been condemned by such idiots.

Stress in Lasalle.
A on going thing; making me sick.
People can handle the stress, but it ain't me.

I'm not a saint nor a deviant.
Neither am I Satan nor Lucifer.
Do not judge me by looks.

I may be friendly; scary too.
How you perceive, is judgement.
Till you know me better, then judge once more.

National Day

2009-08-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

Don't you guys love national day?

I mean, its like 09/08.

Such numbers is like so cool right?

08/08. Cool?
Not really, like so fengshui type.

Wanna prosperous?

Start a business on that day.

Wanna earn big bucks or have good luck?

Go pray on that day and buy big sweep.

So lame man.

Anyway, I'm now ranting so much as I'm kinda

feeling depressed. As usual?

Maybe.

There's something missing.

The missing piece.

The lost puzzle which ran away.

Took off and flew to Vietnam.

October 31st, the particular missing piece

will come back, and complete this puzzle once again.

Hope to see you soon boo.

it all started out with a hug.

2009-08-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

As stated above.

Boo going to Vietnam soon,
I'm quitting work soon.
Working on anger after Boo comes
back from Vietnam.
Tomorrow I'm attending school (like finally).

Traffic Police dropped charges on me.
Finally met up with Ken and Joshua.
Watched The Hangover (4/5 stars for me).
UOB Credit Card attained.
9/8/09 started.

I'm just over the moon :)

2009-07-23T03:04:00.001+08:00

fuck friendlyfire. fuck it.

holy sh*t.

2009-07-18T14:29:00.003+08:00

God damn it.
How many times must I lose my bloody Oakley?
Holy crap.

Now, I didnt lose it while I'm on the sea, but
I've lost it whilst moving my house.
What a loser I am man.

Another $200++ gone to the moving house account.
Basket. I'm so so so GOD DAMN FURIOUS NOW.
f..

Total Oakley's lost = 4
Total Amount lost = SGD $1.2k
Time lost = 1-2 months interval per Oakley.

Damn...
How unlucky I could get?
GOD DAMN UNLUCKY.
HOHOHO PIECE OF SHIT.

I can't believe it,
How could I lose something when it is in
my house and no one took it?
Which bloody mutha f***er took it?
I HAVE NO GOD DAMN IDEA.

BOOHOO!
MY MONEY IS GONE!
NOT ANOTHER OAKLEY :(

Anyway, I'll be shooting a international
model at some place which I need to reconfirm
again. Hope the results I took is gonna be
appealing or I could just jump down to death.

I'm missing someone :/

Circuit 5.02 Assessment.

2009-07-13T12:49:00.002+08:00

Gonna go my assessment for biking
later on. Hope everything goes out
smoothly but with a tinge of fun and
a little bit of seriousness.

LETS HOPE I WONT CRASH AGAIN. LOL!

Why did I crash?
I was looking down at the kerb whilst
doing my s-course. Lost control of the
bike and mounted on a kerb, hence lost
balance and crashed on the road.

Anyway, just not long ago, I quit
Lasalle due to stress and some stuffs
which overloaded me. Thats why I failed :/

sigh, ~~fucked~~.

moved house and sorts.

2009-07-12T11:45:00.005+08:00

As above stated.
Now moved to Woodlands.
No idea on what the hell is
this street and stuff but its a
10-15 minutes walk from Woodland
MRT Station to the apartment.

Oh well, after few months or so,
I'll be moving back to Jurong,
but no idea where :/

Most 'prolly' is at Jurong West Extension
there? I have no idea.

Damn..

How I wish that my previous house
aint sold. Nowadays I'm still going back
to Jurong West to slack and eat,
kinda miss the places and food.

I can't accustom to the things at
Woodlands.

The feeling is shitty :/

Anyway, I'll be completing my biking
by the max.. September?
If I were to say roughly when..
I would predict that its near
the end of September or mid September.

Hope by then, I'll have enough/adequate
money to get my bike.

$6000 SGD for this

ciao!

random.

2009-06-30T12:11:00.010+08:00

Well well, this is the 2008 Suzuki Hayabusa.
The chinese encoding on the fairing means
"Falcon" or "Japanese Falcon" or something
in similar.

It is currently the fastest bike,
Made in Japan,
Pwned Italian bikes like Ducati
or other continental brands like
BMW and etc.

How great can this be?
I let you guys decide.

Top speed 370kmph (record).
0-100kmph in 3 seconds.
Cool?

Yeah.

Class 2B License

2009-06-25T15:19:00.002+08:00

I'm getting my Class 2B License now

and finally my mom let me go with it.

I know the hazards of biking and everything

when its on the road as I've been driving for

the past 2 months.

Lets state the pros and cons.

Pros

No jams during traffic jams.

Versatile

Fast acceleration

Simple designs

Cons

No air-cond

No shelter

Prone to danger

Noisy

Unable to start whilst cold days

So, after all these thoughts, I'm still going

for it! Cause I wanna get a big bike, not

a normal 2B only.

Aiming for Suzuki Hayabusa or a sport tourer

when I got my Class 2 Bike!

Gonna learn my bike at 4PM today!

Take care guys :/

Southern Island Expedition.

2009-06-17T09:44:00.004+08:00

Well well, as mentioned above.
I'll be going to a few southern islands
in Singapore (Please exclude Sentosa).

Will be kayaking towards Sister's Island,
Lazarus Island and St John's Island, and
be the Sweeper for the whole diamond shaped formation.

Anyway, I'm using a 1Mbps modem now! WOOHOO!
It's fucking slow, it can't do much
and lastly, I wanna view my YouTube stuff but
its slow :(

I MISS MY MIO!

O'well, mio is such a bitch that it lags for
no utter reason and then it went dead
after 2 years of Consistent Packeting :/

I MISS MIO!

Yea yea fuck off Clarence,
being such a gay saying he misses a bloody modem.

Anyway, back to SIE.
I will hope to sms people during the trip during SIE

and able to get a reply :/

oh well, i miss somebody, some place, somewhere, somewhat.

Hugs

2009-06-12T04:19:00.004+08:00

Sometimes a small "gift" could actually
make someone's day brighter.

I fell in love, once after your hug started.
It wasn't just a puppy love, nor at a first sight.

I knew what I was thinking.

I knew it.

After that hug, I was actually thinking
"fuck, why did I let go?"
It was true, why did I let go?
It ain't fairytale thingy or sorts, but it delivers.

p.s cant write chinese cause no input text :/

you know who you are :)
KML

The Arena

2009-06-12T04:10:00.002+08:00

Holy shit, I'm using my brother's wireless
thingy which cost a bomb, now I'm just gonna
briefly summarise what did I did yesterday.

I worked my heart out and chiong like shit
at PSA which I perspired like nobody's business.

Reached home afterwards, and slept after I bathed.

Woke up, met Yew Tinn and go towards Tian Wen's house
at Pandan Road.

Drove to St James PowerHouse to celebrate their birthday
but Power House didn't open.

We decided to change location and go to Phuture
but Phuture too, didn't open.

Then we went towards Butter Factory, but got lost.

Went to The Arena and club.

Drank quite a amount of liquor (yeah drink driving)
and then started dancing around and sorts.

Then go home.
Nights.

The pain of discipline is nothing like the pain of disappointment.

2009-06-10T00:33:00.002+08:00

"The pain of discipline is nothing like the pain of disappointment."

Learnt this quote over at SingaporeBikesForum today.

I mean, I kinda like this quote as it will keep me
getting more disciplined day by day, I know you guys
might think that I could not be disciplined right?

But to be honest, I would say that the pain of disappointment
is really a shitty taste. I've tried the taste of
the bloody disappointment already and I've always
compared it to the good side.

Why would someone get such a good grade than me?

Cause I'm a procrastinator.

Yes, I'm honest about it.

And I don't know why I can't change it.

FML

just drop it.

2009-06-08T16:48:00.005+08:00

Who am I suppose to judge;
who is right and who is wrong?
How does it helps to judge oneself.

Change a mindset I should say,
to get a feeling of the right way.
Doubling my pace, to and fro.
And keep my thinking in control.
Being together is all one wants,
hope the other half wants one wants.
It can't go wrong with these two souls,
or conflicts would soon arose.
After times have changed and mindset too,
people would start to break one's tooth.
Violence is not the key in this,
but people are still abusing it.
Love does fade after time goes by,
but will the pair survive the tide,
only they can fight for what they want.

Takes two hand to clap a song,
makes a melody to sing along.
One hand left and the other hand stays,
will a song still be heard from it?
Time goes by,
it ain't coming back.
Would one dashes through the fallen fauna?
To catch the party which had left,
and resurrect the greenery.

Just drop it Clarence.
Imma drop it.

Tried HDR and editings.

2009-06-08T01:03:00.009+08:00

Yea yea.
Dumbasses.

I'm going to post some of the photos
which I personally edited the lightings
and the hue saturation and whatever you name it.

Using all kinds of techniques I've acquired through
my own learning via Jimmy Lim and some other resources.

I'm pretty sure that you guys will go 'Wow!'
after seeing my pictures.
Okay, maybe not.

Oh another thing to add on.
My mom is scraping the car which I'm currently
using and she's gonna buy a Fiat Doblo.

Holy shit!
I do not want this upgrade / downgrade man!
It's utterly disgusting in my point of view
but yeah, one says that I should be contented in
life with the things which I'm having.

~~Fcuk~~ it okay.
Imagine you're driving a sedan, but after a while
you're gonna change to a bloody van?

Gosh!

There.
Fucked up right?
yea rukckaskdfnasuicn it.

i just cant understand the mindset of girls.

2009-06-07T04:32:00.005+08:00

Mentioned above.

Why is there so much friction between
girls and guys?

Oh well, I just personally deleted the
whole post cause I do not want any flaming
to be done.

What's the point?

Anyway, on a lighter note.
Just enjoy this joke :)

我不要别人温柔的怀抱。

2009-06-06T20:49:00.002+08:00

Hope my chinese writing is okay..

Haha!

Anyway, just a quick update on my life
on what I am currently doing and sorts.

Nowadays, I'm really rotting myself at home
and doing absolutely nothing. The feeling of
taking out my camera and shoot is there.

There's no kakis to tag along though.

booohoo :(

Well well, anyway, more into my sports life
and kinda personal stuff. I've just created a
Lasalle Dragonboat Team, currently I'm the
pioneer batch and the whole team does not look
very stable yet, but at least there is 6 strong
crews (i'm included) who're keen to make this
FIRST CCA in Lasalle a strong, dynamic and successful
one and hit it into the history books of Lasalle.

Well I'm not the founder, but Co-Founder.

My vision for this whole cca is to actually
promote a healthier lifestyle for the students in my
school and to promote teamwork, camaraderie, leadership.

Now the whole proposal for my cca to gain Sponsorship
and to get recognition is still under write-up and
I'm going to pass it to the President of Lasalle!

Hope we could get the approval and sponsorship!

Wish me luck :)

我不是 emo ugly duckling :(

2009-06-04T23:50:00.004+08:00

Seriously, nowadays I'm just trying to pump myself up

with every little huff I have inside my body.
Probably because maybe, just maybe that after sculpting

my body, I might, MIGHT have more confidence in myself :)

I've been emo nowadays, no idea why, maybe just a surge

of unhappiness? As they've said, guys do have PMS too!

So, I guess I've hit the shittest part of my moodswing ba.

Thank you Cindy Keong for being there when I needed someone.

谢谢你.

dulan-ness.

2009-06-03T23:06:00.002+08:00

~~Fucking dulan.~~

on the other hand, I finally collected my fucking
license after so many days and weeks and months of
bloody mother fucking procrastination.

~~fucking hell.~~

Interactive Art

2009-05-25T12:55:00.001+08:00

This is interactive art.
Kinda stupid. Yeah. I agree.
but my ideas are WAY better than these :)

failed lasalle.

2009-05-21T04:52:00.002+08:00

Failed Lasalle foundations.
Might be changing course to Interactive Art
if I'm able to do so. Need to attend another
re-assessment.

F it.
Totally!

2009-05-11T20:05:00.001+08:00

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe.
That everything I said and did,
Wasn't just deceiving.

The tear in your eyes,
Your calm hard face.
Makes me wish that I was never
brought into this place.

Maybe it's just me..

Day after 22KM Round Ubin.

2009-05-10T06:44:00.001+08:00

Will be posting photos soon :)

misses drawing ):

2009-05-09T02:40:00.002+08:00

will upload a picture of my latest drawing soon =/

Im late for my sleep.
Gotta wake up at 0645 later and reach Chinese Garden
by 0715 and then travel to meet my friend at 0800
at City Hall.
Afterwards, will travel to Pasir Ris and then
go to Changi Water-Venture and go for expedition.

Tomorrow (Sunday) will be having a KOP
(Kayaking Orientation Programme) which I will be
leading and teaching the people who are in there.

Anyway, Happy vesak day to all buddhist people.

Ciao!
Off to sleep~

Sickness in the heart.

2009-05-07T00:45:00.007+08:00

the sight of you walking past me
without saying hi, really troubled me.
was it that you cant see me,
or you just plans to ignore me?
last seen you at
Wednesday 6 May 2009 8.10pm JE bus interchange.

Guide me anyone?

2009-05-05T00:15:00.001+08:00

I need guidance in this.
What if I fail lasalle?
Where can I go?
What can I do?
What is the next best step?
Any future for me?

Great.

Problems is arising soon, I guess
I will serve the nation if I fail..

Oh well, maybe you guys might like my
shaved head? sigh.

Repeat or NS?

2009-05-04T14:18:00.001+08:00

Guys, I need a suggestion.

Should I repeat my LASALLE year 1 or should
I go to NS if I fail?
Suggestions please.

Thanks.

feeling damn shitty now.

2009-04-29T12:10:00.000+08:00

to all my readers out there.

I might not pass my Lasalle year 1.

Fuck :(

alright, assessment over.

time to sleep now :)

Attn.

2009-04-28T15:31:00.006+08:00

To all my readers out there.

I've been stressing out alot and I'm proud to

say that I got a free treatment for hair colour!

Guess what colour is that?

YEAP!

WHITE HIGHLIGHTS!

Which salon?

Free body system salon!

My hair's pigment faded and now the hair which

is situated at the back of my head is turning white.

Highlights not dye :P

It looks kinda cool though, but I hate people calling me

old man or "HEY WHAT ARE YOU STRESSING ABOUT".

Retarded people with no brains or low IQ.

Of course I'm stressing about SCHOOL, fuckheads.

Tomorrow is my assessment and I haven't do any shit out

yet for the lecturers and what? I might fail you dumbshits.

So, I'm rushing my ass off to do my work tonight at my friend's

house at Siglap, gonna take cab to school tomorrow cause my

artwork is ENORMOUS. No joke, it is DAMN HUGE.

Imagine the work which I showed you guys previously.

The Hunter's Haunting.

It is printed out on a 100cmx141.45cm.

So, how to bring that to school?

''Mrt?''

FUCK YOU, NO MRT.

"Cab?"

EXACTLY!

"Why take cab than MRT?"

MRT permits me to take my artwork with me as the

restricted size is around there, so they let me in.

"Then? Take MRT lah!"

Go die please.
I got 80 A2 drawings, 5 A4 Books, 1 Easel, 1 Canvas,

4 A0, 2 Woods, 4 A3.

How can I bring these up on MRT myself?

"Ask your friends! They will help!"

I requested for assistance from my friends already,

and they're willingly to help me in this.
But for convenience sake, I would call for a cab too.

I don't wish to make my friend's life miserable and travel

in the MRT with such bulky shits.

"How much have you spent on Lasalle?"
Fees is 4.5k SGD.

"How about materials?"
Easily up to 2k SGD.

"Thats EXPENSIVE! Why choose art?"
I believe art can express myself out, and furthermore,

I'm taking photography which is my passion.

"Why not learn at a Polytechnic?"
I must eat my humble pie now, I got 30points in O's.

Why must I elaborate all these?

Cause I want you guys to know, the art industry is too

small but there's TOO many competitiveness.

For those who wants to get into the art industry like me.

Just remember this phrase from me.

"You are a good painter, but no one commercialise for you.

So what are you? Nothing. You need exhibitions, or widespread name,

or you will starve and till then, no one even knows your name."

-Clarence Chua

dream.

2009-04-24T03:32:00.004+08:00

I woke up, not because of the cold chilly
aircon which my mom enabled for me.

It's a dream, a dream which is so realistic that
when I woke up, I can't believe that my eyes actually
teared and its watery. It is not because I'm tired
or the effects of just waking up, get it?

Its the dream..

It is not a scary dream, but a sad dream about
my life and how I lost something.

NOT MY OAKLEY!

It is how I lost this someone.
fuck. I'm emotionally unstable again.

oakley and family lost.

2009-04-19T20:49:00.001+08:00

I don't wish to elaborate much.

Oakley lost in the sea whilst training.

Fought with my both bros today in a car with my dad around.

I think this is all,
don't wanna say much.

Losing her soon.
Lost my family, and oakley.

FUCK!

FINAL PROJECT. SHOWCASE TO ALL MY READERS

2009-04-16T10:26:00.001+08:00

As above stated. I would show you guys
the latest project which I enjoy doing.
It is kinda fun and enjoyable whilst doing it
but there's a lot of stress in it too.

Hope you guys enjoy my Photomanipulation.

Hunter's Haunting

ikea; school work = assessments = stressed.

2009-04-14T12:58:00.004+08:00

UPDATED!

As usual, I'm stressed again due to my school work.
The projects has been piling up like a Mt.Everest
and it is still growing!

April 29th is my Final Assessment where I will be
graded upon my whole foundation year and determine
whether I will pass or retain, I hope everything
will go smoothly for me for this year as I've been
kinda unlucky.

*tsk tsk tsk*

So, I've made up my mind, I'm gonna be good boy
from now and stop playing games unless I'm stressed
out and restrict myself to only 1 hour if so.

Anyway, I'm going to Ikea now to find out if there's
any frame which is more than 1m x 1.4m.
MORE THAN.

I just came back from Ikea.
Okay, not really JUST, but kinda 5 hours ago.
I went around Ikea like a dumbshit, can't find the
woodplanks section and was going round and round
at the few same place and I don't know where the hell
am I untill I told myself that I'm lost.

*laughs*

So, I didn't bought individual woods to make up a 1m x 1.4m.
Rather, I bought 2 nice frames and gonna disassemble it
and gonna assemble it to make it 1.2m x 1.6m.

Okay, I'm le' tired already.
Gonna ciao now, sleep :)
Night guys.

Voca People.

2009-04-04T17:40:00.002+08:00

Just something for you guys to listen.

I would personally give a two thumbs up to this
acapella group called the Voca People.

Please do watch this.

failed tp.

2009-04-02T22:37:00.003+08:00

Oh wells, I guess I am very unlucky to get the
tester 'Goh Kem Chung'.

Those who is being tested by him, please do take note
that he will really award you with any fucking points.

Feeling shitty, please do not ask for more.

Thank you,
Clarence

NUS ODAC EXPEDITION TO CONEY ISLAND, LOST OAKLEY, STRESSED

2009-03-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

Today I went over to Pasir Ris Park to conduct an
kayaking expedition for NUS ODAC (Outdoor Adventure Club)
team and it feels kinda shitty to do this job.

I don't mind helping them to 'lead' the way but some
of them gets on my nerve due to paddling slowly or either
purposely capsizing their boats.

The process of rescuing them and bailing out the water
is really tedious and I doubt that anyone likes to bail out the
water from a capsized boat such as a DOUBLE SLALOM(FIBERGLASS).

It is totally shit as the double slalom is effing heavy when there
is water in it due to the length and there's not much of buoyancy
inside the kayak. Some of the buoyancy is not even secured!

Oh my!

Anyway, I started the briefing with the ODAC students
with just a very very stupid brief and then set off in a diamond
formation. The worse part is that everyone clustered around
the right marker and some even paddle DAMN SLOW.

I was the sweeper of the whole formation, that means that
no one be behind me. If not, I would actually scold them or either
request them to hurry up.

So, paddled to coney and reached within 2hours (kinda long already).
Paddled back to Pasir Ris Park and taught one girl how to
do an Eskimo Roll. It is a skill for you to recover whenever
you're capsized and do not wish to bail out from your kayak.

Eventually, she didn't manage to get to know how to do a
proper Eskimo Roll, but rather, I taught her how to do a
Palata Roll, MIND YOU, ITS PALATA, NOT PRATA!

Difference between a Palata and a Eskimo roll is that
Palata Roll attains more support due to the length
of the paddle is being maximized but the Eskimo Roll is
a roll which is very graceful and swift if you could execute it well.

Okay, enough crap.

Then the NUS ODAC team invited me for their barbecue,
I really appreciated their welfare and support cause in my whole
kayaking life, I was never been invited for a bbq after an expedition
or either any courses or shit.

So, a big thank you to all NUS ODAC team members!

NOT TO FORGET, I LOST MY OAKLEY!
IT IS THE SECOND OAKLEY WHICH THE SEA CONSUMED!
TOTAL LOSSES IS AMOUNTED UP TO SGD650!
Polarized Lens (SGD198)
M-FRAME + Sweep Lens (SGD278)
HALF JACKET + XLJ Lens (SGD240)

TOTAL HEART PAIN! :(

I guess the 'Sea Dragon King' loves my offering.
(direct translation from Mandarin).

CIAOS!

EIRELAV ULI

anger, frustration, bullied, f' the shit.

2009-03-25T01:41:00.002+08:00

I have no idea on why people pick on me because of my face.
Maybe of my mentality?
I do not know.

Do I have the 'gangster' look?

Why am I being targeted?

Is people jealous cause of my face w/ no pimples?

Oh come on, do not be such a childish little prick.
Target me or pick on me cause of stupid minor things
when there's much more to do in life than just bullying
others and practically wasting your time on that.

Is it fun to do it?

Last time, I will agree that it is fun, but after growing
more matured over each day, I feel that it is a stupid
thing to pick on others.

I sincerely apologise to those who have been bullied by
me in the past, such as Junde.

Sorry for whacking you during Secondary 4 till your
whole arms and legs were badly bruised and made your
life looks so shitty at the point.

Call me a coward that I, bullied people smaller sized than me.

So, today, I went on a shouting spree in my room, just to vent
all that anger being bottled by these bullies I've met.

Just to say this, next time, if there's another prick wants
to try come pick on me, I doubt I'll hold back.

Save You - Simple Plan

2009-03-20T13:08:00.009+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could save you,
and there're so many things I want you to know.
I wont give up till its over.
if it takes you forever,
I want you to know..

i aint grabbing attention.
maybe I am, without knowing that I'm doing it subconciously.

Haiku :(

2009-03-16T02:25:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is a new day of school (indeed).
After skipping one whole week of lessons including
lectures and workshops, I've decided to study with
all my 'remaining' energy, will and determination
and end this torment before April 28th arrives.

Why April 28th?
Due to Lasalle 'exam'.
It is called assessment where everyone's work
will be assessed by the lecturers themselves and give
each and everyone a overall grading.

What are you gonna do since you've slacked for a week
Promises to myself that I will not really engage into
computer games so often for this whole one month
period and concentrate on my own work.

Are you confident in getting promoted to Level 1?
Half-half I guess?
I really got no motivation in doing my work.
I just need time with some of my buddies to clear
the thoughts in my mind.

Well, these are the overall things which I do speak
right from the bottom of my heart.
Kinda what the hell right?
Slack for one whole week.. Clever indeed.
Anyway, lets hope tomorrow will start on my new
project which is called the Specialism project.

Specialism project is kinda weird you know?
I need to do a friggin 1x1m artwork (photograph)
or a size of A1 artwork. This seems easy, but the
requirements is totally INSANE.

I need to show :
30 Thumbnails
20 Photographs of animal details (paws, furs, head, eyes)
10 Black & White DETAILED DRAWINGS of an HYBRID

(Self imposed 'requisite')
5 'Test Print' copies of Final Photograph (A4).
2 Best pieces.
1 Final piece.

Well, hope I execute this well.
And hope all my friends support me in any income or
financial aid :P
hehehe..

Okay, I'm gonna end this post with a simple
poem which I create. Probably a haiku.

Love is such a pain,
but yet I do love that way;
I gained more than that.

Hugs, kiss, that's the best,
Companionship, with the rest,
And I do love her.

the feeling for me to you is this.

2009-03-12T00:11:00.006+08:00

Ever thought of building a world to your loved ones?

Ever willing to build the perfect one for the other half?

If you answer to all the questions above as "No".
Then please, do not watch the video I'm about to post
as this is not your type of genre.

This is a special dedication to someone whom I would
love to create the world for her.
Oh well, this is kinda cheezy, but I still, do love you.

Crazy.

2009-03-09T11:03:00.004+08:00

Within ourselves lies a drive,
a force that only make sense to us.
It is that force, the drive that can make
a person crazy.

Crazy is only what you make of it.
In the past, most people think
that crazy is a negative thing.

But I repeat, craziness is only
what you make of it.

Craziness is a state of mind which
comprised with desire, anger, knowledge,
courage, fear and devotion.

Crazy makes musician and artists talented.

Crazy makes a dying man take his own life.

Crazy makes a man and a woman to fall in love.

Make what you will of this but I cannot believe
that I would be better off being "sane".

Therefore and I am, and will remain, crazy.

-Marilyn Monroe

clarence says.

2009-03-02T02:19:00.002+08:00

i do not dare to sms you.
not to mention just saying
a simple :"hello!".

how fucking pathetic am i?

i just wish things would go back
to the state where we just met.
please baby.

i need and want you more than ever.

imissyou.

2009-02-28T01:44:00.004+08:00

Well, there's loads of projects in hand now.
Just cleared a 1000 word essay about the Lumiere Brothers
which they're inventors cum film makers cum physicists.

So, I completed that piece of essay by plagiarism
but just re edit some points and put in some of
my own humble opinion to it. If you guys want the
stupid essay, you can download it here.

Oh shit. Blogger doesn't have that service for me to upload
my file to it.

Crap.

If you guys read my essay, I guarantee you that you will
lmao like hell. no joke. LOL!

Alright then, I think I'm off to BBDC to deposit money.

Ciaos~

I'll never let you fall,
I'll stand up for you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even though saving you will send me to heaven.

this i promise you.

Abercrombie & Fitch JUST ARRIVED! :D

2009-02-24T17:09:00.003+08:00

OH MY!

Guess what?
My Abercrombie & Fitch jeans just reached my home safely
and it is authentic (cause I know how to check whether is it
auth or not:))! Seriously, I'm goddamned elated now. LOL!

There's another part of me feeling damn bad now.
Due to the fact that I got like 2-3 post not completed yet.
damn.. Nevermind!

Here's some photos of this new addition to my wardrobe.

Abercrombie & Fitch Baxter Jeans

Baxter Jeans Picture II

Authentic signs :)

Baxter!

Well, this picture shows the word Abercrombie in it.
Heh. At least this is a nice jeans huh? :P
Critiques and Comments are allowed!

CRASHED AT BUKIT TIMAH HILL! D:

2009-02-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

Argh.
This post is gonna be wordy like the OCBC post D:
If can't 'tahan', just speed read alright?

I've just completed my downhill ride at
Bukit Timah Hill with my Kona blast.
Damn, I must warn all newbies to avoid going
there when the floor is wet.
PLEASE, BRING ALL YOUR GEAR BEFORE YOU GO!
LOL!

So, this is my experience.

I was waiting for Yew Tinn's call at around 1700hrs to
go Bukit Timah hill with me and "try out" the thrashing
by that hill. YT didnt call, but rather, he came up to my house
and shouted at me. It stunned me for awhile. LOL!

Okay, then I quickly wear my gloves and then was ready
to leave my house. Yeah, I didn't bring my helmet though.
So, we cycled through Jurong West Ave 1 - Jurong East Ave -
Boon Lay Way - Jurong East Central - Bukit Batok East Ave 6 -
Upper Bukit Timah Road - Hindhede Road - Bukit Timah Hill!

Kinda long and wordy.
Yeah, and we reached there without any worries, the only part
is that I do not have any hydration pack along the way.
So, was dehydrating after that long distance covered.

Anyway, I hydrated myself via the water cooler...

TBC. tired D:

OCBC Cycle Race [Volunteer]

2009-02-23T00:58:00.002+08:00

OCBC Cycle Race is such a huge event where almost
eight thousand Singaporeans attended to this event
with their bikes. Those without bikes? Don't fret, there
is rental for them!

The worse piece of shit is that I'm a volunteer for this race,
and they requested me to reach Jurong East MRT Station
at 0230hrs on 22 February (Sunday morning).

So, I met up with my Yong Cheng to walk towards JE MRT
at around 0130hrs. both of us ate 2 plain prata before heading
there on foot. Upon reaching there, the shuttle bus came
damn punctually and it is estimated that there is around 15
volunteers who boarded the bus.

Bus then departed towards our destination.
The F1 Pit Stop / Holding Area.
Was listening to my mp3 player and kinda just got into
some of my songs. For example, 'Love, me' by Collin Raye.
I was like.. Able to feel whatever that guy is singing.
cool huh?

Okay, that is kinda off, but well anyway, lets get back to the topic.
Upon reaching the bloody holding area at around 0300hrs which..
If I'm not wrong, the bus took 25minutes to reach there.
BACK TO TOPIC AGAIN.
We set on foot once again, walking aimlessly to find a big tentage
which is called the Volunteer's Tent. Walked walked walked, there's
nothing but just roads, barricade, banners and etc.

So, as a typical human, we follow this theory of
'Monkey see, monkey do'. Therefore, we followed some guys and
found our little way thru to the HUGE MASSIVE TENTAGE.
No joke, it iss damn huge till it can contain a bus with some
free space to manuever. LOL!

Then I was posted to Baggage crew on that day and YC is posted
to Road Marshall. Damn, if you guys think, yeah, Baggage is more
relaxed duty compared to Road Marshallers, but if you volunteer
to be a volunteer in this race, but did not see any action.
I would actually say that it is stupid.
AND THE WHOLE THING WASTED MY TIME!

UPDATE LATER! ANGRY AND SLEEPY ME D:

Analogue Photography [EDITING SOON!]

2009-02-19T04:14:00.004+08:00

Anyone knows what is happening in my life?

I doubt so.

Whatever okay? Tomorrow (practically, today) I'll be having
my Analogue Photography class which is using a bloody Pin Hole Camera
which is totally DIY and well, its kinda fun you know?

The weird looking machine which emits light for some time.

Opemus 6.
I got no idea on what the hell does this means.

Probably is the brand or the model name.

(Lazy to do research on this)

Meopta?
WTH IS THIS?! LOL!

Post will STILL be edited.

All of the things that I wanna say
Just aren't coming out right.
I guess these three words would convey it out.
I love you.

A Lonely September by Plain White tees

2009-02-17T01:51:00.003+08:00

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out'
cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
(One more chance tonight)

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain
myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone
it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything
I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

Neko, I miss you.

One Day After Valentine's.

2009-02-15T23:59:00.005+08:00

I met up with her and well, had loads of things
prepared for her. It's probably the first time
I ever gave flowers to someone.
here's some photos only.
Okay, one photo.
Not photos. LOL!

I'm wondering, how to make you mine.
I know that I've done you wrong, but please, I'm working
my own way out to really hold that one opportunity.
I'm gonna tell you this, I still love you as much as you
love(d) that guy, but please, I just need one last chance.

i must still say this.
I love you.

Valentine's Day!~

2009-02-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

happy birthday val :)

Final Theory Test Part I

2009-01-30T19:00:00.001+08:00

PHOTOS UPLOADED!

So, I've passed my Final Theory Test (FTT) for my
driving and now I'm proceeding to take my Traffic Police (TP) Test.
:)

Its nothing difficult to be honest.

PHOTOS UPLOADED!

TWO HAPPY PEOPLE WHO PASSED THEIR FTT!

THE RESULT SLIP OKAY!!!! LOL!

2009-01-24T03:08:00.003+08:00

This is the upcoming activities to complete.
1) 3D ( Sketch + Complete Sketch Book + Structure )
2) Illustrator ( Whole horoscope + Portrait )
3) Drawing Fundamentals ( 30 Pieces of A4 Sized Drawings )
4) Drawing Development ( 2 A3 sized drawings, 1 A2 sized + Research )
5) Research on Damien Hierst
6) Research on Marciel Duchamp

__________________________________________________

How to improve myself
1) No more procrastinating
2) Time Management
3) Be diligent ( I doubt myself though )
4) Be more serious
5) Postive mindset is a MUST
6) Be more competitive

__________________________________________________

Lineups of going out activities for upcoming week

Monday - Tuesday
Visiting. Waste time there

Wednesday
Meet Qing Wen and Co. to eat and slack

Thursday - Sunday
Stay at home to do work

2009-01-21T08:09:00.002+08:00

its 0809hrs now, and this is what I've dreamt about.

There's an alien abduction and there's little or nothing
I could do about. It all started out when I was walking back
home in the night, whilst walking back via the Yuhua Secondary's
backdoor route. I saw this huge mega spaceship around the size
of 100 metres. It was gigantic, massive, and whatever.

It landed really perfectly beside me with some weird machines
looking at me then stopped at one corner across the road.
I was totally thinking WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!
I ran home asap after looking what happened at at road
where people started dying and sorts.

I rushed home, calling Hafiz and my whole family to
wake them up and faster escape with me to somewhere safe.
There's alot of ideas generated, but to me, none will work.
Eventually, there's a place, in Berlin, will work out..

_____________________________________________

When I woke up, I was friggin' afraid, I've never felt so scared
about dying before, and I'm not thinking bout death or such,
but it is just that the world is gonna end?

Next, when I woke up, I heard this sound, a whistling sound,
a damn sad medevial sound. damn scary.
sigh.

fucking furious.

2009-01-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

whoever pisses me off now shall die.

FTT, Valentines Day preparation

2009-01-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

Final Theory Test
There's alot of commotion bout people taking their
FTT and passing it without any worries.
I would not really pin high hopes onto theory sessions
as I can't remember much bout words but rather
take things into hands on stuffs and excelling in it.
Lets hope my Final Theory shall be a good one, then I'll
be ready for my Traffic Police test in the near future.

Valentine's Day Preparation
So, what's up with valentine's day?
Everyone seems to be preparing something for their
other half and what bout me?
Doing absolutely nothing bout it.
What to do? There's nothing I can do for this point of time.
Just that, I got an idea for that person.
It will remain as a mystery bout what am I gonna
do for her, well, I'll do something that no one ever do.

Don't be silly, not bout cutting my wrists or whatever sick
shit that these emo kids doing, but rather, it is something
not related to physical abuse nor any abuses.
It is a gift.

I will always love you the way
you love that guy.

2009-01-19T01:40:00.003+08:00

It's fcuk'ing 0140 hours and I'm still awake.

I got no idea on why am I awake.

I guess that there's alot of things in mind.

Too many things to do, too little time in hand.

Guys, I'm contented that my painting skills has

improved dramatically and I must work towards my

goal which is stop procrastinating and start working

harder and smarter.

Was working on my Mural project which consist of a

HIGH PERCENTILE of my overall marks for my 2D.

What is a mural? Means painting on the wall (With Approval).

Not street graffiti, mind you.

My team's final painting was

Critics and Comments are absolutely welcomed!

mom might be going to dubai for a long period.

2009-01-17T00:16:00.002+08:00

fcuk it, I don't get it when the adults are thinking in such a
naive way compared to their own children.
The worse part is that the parent is going to a place where they've
only went there once or might not even went there before.
It is something like a unknown place to them.

Actually, my mom is intending to go to Dubai with her sister
to start up a company there, which is actually selling mobile phones.
My uncle, who is residing there now (due to passport being revoked at Dubai)
heard bout my aunt's plight as she's now working like a bull just to earn
that small amount of money.

He promised her that working in Dubai is not so tough as compared
to Singapore (kinda true) but the competition there is tough.
________________________________________________

Imagine this, if your mom asked you to take care of yourself and
take care of your brothers due to her departure to another country for a
long period of time, what would you feel?

The pain is totally excruciating. I can still feel it even though its already
been two long days, but the pain, I must say, is unbearable for those
who are grown more attached to their parents.

Some might say I am a fcuk'ed up kid with no manners or whatsoever
with no feelings to his family.

Think again.

Clarence

blog.

2009-01-15T18:03:00.004+08:00

Everytime I reminisce bout you,
the first thing which popped out was your face.
It doesn't matter what you looked like now,
whether is it prettier, became more adorable,
I would still say you have not changed a bit.

The picture of you is still with me, I've lost track
of the picture where we took, it was the only one.
Damn that bastard which looted my phone.

If I could find you now, things would get better.
I don't want us to remain as friends nor acquaintance,
I want more. More than what anyone expect.

They've said we're meant to be, but thanks to
my foolishness and selfish attitude, I've lost you.
Now, I hope to change for the better, but the fact
that I've lost you is still there, I can't change anything.

I shall wait..

2009-01-10T20:52:00.001+08:00

will be updating tomorrow.
no more procrastinating.

Kayaking Coaching; Merry Christmas! Not so Merry afterall.

2008-12-26T13:30:00.006+08:00

So, lemme summarize everything in just around like
400 words. LOL!

Saturday and Sunday 20th & 21st Dec.
Was coaching for these two days and got quite a few
insightful tips from the full fledged trainers.
These are some of the points which I need to do / change.

Get a lesson plan planned.
Interact with the whole group not one small group.
Read up more things about kayaking and impart them.
Do not show off skills infront of 1 Star-lers.
Teach them what they need, can impart more if they're fast.
Be flexible.

So, I must really get my lesson plan done, due to the fact that
I'm the "Trainer-In-Charge" during that day for that particular
course. I guess I really need to train up!~

Merry Christmas! Not so merry afterall.

Merry Christmas guys!
Sorry, its kinda late cause I dont have the time to blog it out.
Not finding any excuses or whatever, but I was so tired yesterday
that I couldn't blog it out at all!

DAMN!

Anyway, during Christmas eve, I was working in PSA AGAIN!
*great..*
Was working working and then went to Tanjong Pagar to
collect a voucher from Jessica!
Thanks man!
The voucher was from Gelare and I could redeem a sexy
lil' 9" Sheperd Pie.
Can you guys imagine how big it is?
and it is 9 INCH, not Foot though D:

Then I took train home, but HOLY SHIT.
I TOOK THE WRONG SIDE.
Was supposingly to take to Boon Lay, but I took the
train which leads to Pasir Ris.
Luckily, I noticed that it was already at City Hall,
thats why I alighted and then faster rush back home.

Met Tony & cliques at Lakeside, 1700hrs.
Rushed over to Jurong East and walked to Qing Wen's house.
Reached Qing Wen's house already, saw quite a handful
of people over there (inclusive of people I personally do not know).
But well, I did some Self-Introduction to those who do not know me.

2000hrs
Everyone was playing Wii and neglecting the barbecue pit which
was manned by me. Everyone was trying to get the food but not
wanting to cook it.
Not really good huh? Leaving me there and make me cook for you guys.
Well, every year is the same.
What can I expect?

SAME THINGS!

Enjoyed the session where Hui Shan (Tony's girlfriend)
came over and helped out and we're talking all over the place.
Not long after, she went off.
Then the barbecue pit was all silent, only me who's manning it.
Thanks to Chien Juen and Hup Lian which comes over after that
or maybe before ( i forgot, sorry ). Then the whole place livens up again.
Nevertheless, I'm feeling down and yeah.
I don't know why.

When 0000 Strikes, I was the only one which shouted
MERRY CHRISTMAS, there was no reply!
Then only the few people beside me replied.
How merry can this be? fuck..

Then sent out an sms.

So, since there's something bottled in me, I took it out
when I was drinking with qw, really kinda upset
over what I've done. But well, hope shes back D:

I think thats all, not gonna blog anymore.
Feeling kinda shitty again.

Ciaos

I'll do whatever it takes,
to turn this around,
I know what's at stake,
I know that I've let you down.
and if you give me the chance,
believe that I can change,
I'll keep us together,
whatever it takes.

Aunt admitted into Hospital

2008-12-18T13:06:00.005+08:00

Sigh.

Life is so frail ain't it?
Illnesses and more diseases are emerging to
the surface of our world already.
It's no longer a laughing matter on who gets
chicken pox-es or fever or flu, as one's body needs to
be equipped with the best immune system.

My aunt, over 50 years old.
Was admitted into hospital yesterday due to infection
in the left lungs. Infection? Why infection and what does it do?

She was coughing for the past two months without failing
and till yesterday, she felt that she has some breathing
difficulties when she walk a distance.

For instance, if she walks 40metres, she will start to pant.
So, she went for check-up at Jurong Polyclinic and went
for X-Ray, after waiting for the results, the doctor was
shocked and declared an state of emergency for her as
her left lung (under X-Ray results) was "misty".
This means that her left lung is filled with water.

After getting the results, doctor asked her to be admitted
into hospital immediately and call a ambulance / cab, but something
ironic happen, since this is an emergency, my aunt don't care it.
She went home by bus, took a nice warm bath and ate
2 slices of bread, watches the SGX (stocks) and then took
a cab down.

Cool right? LOL!

At 3pm ++, my brother sent an sms to me saying that she was
under observation but didn't tell me the reason.
Actually, no one knows the reason except for herself and her sisters.
Reached Singapore General Hospital at 7 with dad and eldest bro.
And something to take note, the wards is like so friggin' old
and not renovated, worse of all, there's no air ventilation!
Do not include fans okay! The ventilation sucks like hell.
I was in the ward and almost perspired due to the humidity over there.

After that, we went dinner at some frog porridge thing at..
idk. LOL!

Then headed home to sleep :)

i like it whenever i get your replies.
i wish for us to get back.
but, hope fate pulls us back again.
v

BTT Passed, Kayaking 3 Star Assessment, Filming for CHEC

2008-12-16T10:02:00.004+08:00

Great news guys!
I've passed my BTT (Basic Theory Test ( for driving ))
and now I've obtained my PDL ( Provisional Driving License )
and I'm able to drive on road, with a certified instructor D:
Why sad face? LOL!
Cause my FTT ( Final Theory Test ) is at Feb.

WTF?

Don't worry, I'll rush my driving and get it cleared asap :)

and now, Kayaking 3 Star Assessment!
I was having my assessment on last sunday (14/12/08)
and that day was a strenuous day.
Almost drowned in the sea as my paddle was in the water
and I'm too close to the sea ground, therefore I cant manage
to do a roll as there's obstruction (the sea bed).
Grasping for air, I bailed out but my legs were stuck there.
What an unlucky day!
Eventually, I struggled out and was really dying.

LOL!

My assessor was Mr Richard Lim.
The 2nd full timer for kayaking, which was awarded with
the Trainer's Titan Award (Platinum).
The only one in whole of Singapore to get the award for this year.
How cool can that be?
And thats the reason why I almost failed the whole assessment
due to that shithead. He was so strict and demanded for perfectness!
Out of 10 kayakers in my assessment course, 5 failed, 3 deferred, 2 passed.
I was one of the deferred pass-ers.
And I injured my legs, suffered from 2 huge cuts from the boat
and my thumb is swollen due to one skill called Sculling for Support.
fcuking shit.

I MUST TRAIN UP!

Ahhh, and later, I'll be one acting in a short film for my
previous school (CHEC).
Will provide / inform you guys bout the link when the whole video
is up for viewing. Sadly, the female "actress" is someone I do not
see before nor hear before. "how great?"
LOL!

anyway, ciaos!
update soon :)

2008-12-10T12:19:00.003+08:00

i dreamt that we're back together again.
after all the silly mistakes i've made.
after all the silly shit i've said,
i can't believe it.
but it was a dream.
v

Kayaking 3 Star, Coaching!, Driving BTT, Dubai Presents!

2008-12-09T14:19:00.002+08:00

Well well, guess who's back? :D
Anyway, there's alot to blog as I've been missing
from blogger for more 29 days. LOL!
Relatively short for some of you guys.

Okay, lets start with.....
3 Star Kayaking and Coaching!

My 3 star assesment is around the corner, its lands
on the 14th Dec 2008. So, the best thing to do now is to
keep on kayaking and refining my skills to finally get my
award :D damn excited man, no joke.
Nowadays, I'm coaching people with various age range.
I think the oldest was 21 or 22, and the youngest was 14.
It's really hard to coach those below 16 due to their lack of
discipline and strength, sometimes, they get on your nerves
beacause they dont give you the attention you wanted.
DAMN! LOL!

Now, change topic,
BTT! I'm prepared for my BTT as it lands on the 12 Dec 2008.
12/12/08. cool right? HAHAHAHA!
But well, all the best for me! :D

Dubai!
My mom flew back from Dubai after 2 weeks of "holiday" over
there. She was complaining due to my grandmother kept
saying :"aiyo, my leg pain la" or "eh, dont go out, lets stay in the hotel".
Whoa, my mom is so pissed that she cant do anything there
but just to stay in the hotel with my grandmother.
Whenever my mom tries to sneak out, my grandmother stopped
her or either STALK her. HAHAHA!
PWNED TOTALLY!

Updates coming soon :)

2008-11-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

1. Do you have secrets?
Of course. Plenty :D

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
Yeah.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Waiting since 2 years ago.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
(if only!)
I would build myself a nice pretty house by the beach and then
sleep there, one bugatti veyron, one harley davidson, one suzuki haya :D
maybe I will get some kayaking boats with a good paddle, with all gears also.
Probably invest on stocks (like now, because of global trade.) then give
some money to my mom and maybe start up a philantropic foundation.
not to mention, I want LENSES FOR MY CAMERA! AND BRANDED
WEARS! :D

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
No, I'm not gay fyi.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loved by someone.

7. Give one reason why you love your significant other.
She understands me, can relate to me, know my temper, shes not
the average typical girl. Thats why she's unique.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I'll continue to wait.

9. What is the first thing you want to do when you're legal?
Driving License!

10. What would you do if your significant other cheats on you?
I'll give my other half another chance to redeem herself, then, if the
cheating thing still persists, I guess its time to say goodbye.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Halfway successful in my career, almost being a father :D

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
SHE, my cliques ( both FHS and lasalle ), family.

13. How many times your heart has been broken?
Handful.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
It varies.

15. What is your favourite colour?
Black, brown, white, red.

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
Seek for opinion from besties.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Yes.
Though will brood over a little while but then, everything's back to normal afterwards.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
I still miss you as ever.

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?
Come on, dont be evil, lemme choose both!
IF, to very worst, 50/50. LOL!

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
Fuck, then do you believe?

5 people to do this survey:
Ken, Qing Wen, Chien Juen, Cindy, Joshie.

safety kayaker is fun yet tiring D:

2008-11-09T17:17:00.003+08:00

As I've stated above on the topic, hehehehe.
Anyway, summarize the whole thing to you guys for
easier reading and not a whole chunk of details.
( no offence to any bloggers )

Yesterday 8th November 08'
_________________________

Today was a hell outta crazy night!
Departed from home and out to meet Ivan and Aaron
at Marina Square's Starbucks Cafe? or coffee? LOL.
Challenged on PSP Bomberman and see who's king over there :D
as expected, I'm still the one which dominates them. ;)

Headed for heavy dinner at Long John
as I haven't had my breakfast nor lunch.
Seriously, is there any event for photography?
There's a huge number of people carrying out their
DSLRs! The most impressive ones are the old technologies.
The SLRs! LOL! cool right? :D

Headed straight to Pasir Ris MRT station for us to take
bus 89 which goes to WVCG ( Water Venture Changi ) to stay
overnight at there as there's event tomorrow.
So, before we slept, we played Big 2 // Dai Dee or whatever shit
and wow, my luck is very good in the beginning, but started
to suck once I get over confident in my luck.

I'm sorry, but we're actually gambling. LOL!
Not really gambling as in the sense of playing with money, but
rather, we're playing with push ups! heh.
ok, from a good player till sucked like shit.

Lost over 100+ push ups at the end of the day.

Not really happy with the results, in the end played Blackjack.
I was dominating again, and in the end, i lost 40 pushups in just
ONE ROUND. OH NO!
hahaha. Accumulated till its 65. shit man!
then went to bed :D

Today
______________________________

Woke up at 0630, went back to sleep and woke up again at 0730.
Ate few slices of plain prata and changed into my wet attire!
Headed out to sea with my Slaloms with 14 safety kayakers
and there's only 1 "2 star-er" LOL!

The worst shit is that we kayaked acrossed the channel and
then we slacked for an hour.
Talking loads of bullshit here and there, but did received some
information about what exactly is 4 star being conducted ;)

*im tired now, needa type fast and go rest. 1hr more to dinner*

ok, so, first kayak went past us, it was the K2's.
I was expecting to see Iskandar, but well, didnt catch him at
all while I was doing my job. Weird.
Then, there was one capsized kayak, an K1.
We, as safety kayakers, should instruct a capsized victim on
what to do, but instead, this guy which I'm trying to "un-cap" him,
he told me on what to do instead. wtf.

Ok, then in the end, powerboaters called in for my help to ask
all the K1's, K2's, Slaloms and other boats to get away from the
shore and move around the powerboat.
Since I'm trained to shout (thanks to npcc), I shouted at the
top of my lungs and said this :"ALL KAYAKERS, MOVE
AWAY FROM THE SHORE AND GO AROUND THE POWERBOAT!"

yet, some people still ask me :"where should I go?"
TOTALLY W.T.F~!

Ok, job done afterwards. then went back to my club and bathed
and then went home, kinda tiring day, and my neck now is swollen
due to the extreme shoutings ( I shouted alot of times ). I think its because
of the veins or the artery or whatever shit is pissed with me.

OK NIGHTS! 50MINUTES MORE WTF!

fcuk'ed me.

2008-11-07T02:15:00.004+08:00

I'm fcuk'ing depressed.
Why?

Not enough time,
not enough words,
not enough motivation,
not enough money (for art),
not enough inspiration,
not enough OF ALOT OF THINGS!

FCUK IT!
No joke, I'm pissed off with alot of things,
people are thinking that I cant perform as well
as the others, but if you guys give me time,
I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT I CAN.
Why does no one believe me that I can do things
wayyyyy better than the others?

Is it because I've slacked too much?
Or I didnt put in much effort?

Come on, I want to improve,
I want to train harder,
I want to grow,
I want to master my techniques,
I want to be motivated.

I do not want to be the last.
I do not want to be the uninspired person.
I do not want to give up.

I NEED TO CARRY ON!

Any motivations?
I found my drive in painting,
I do not know what you guys will think bout this,
and I seriously don't care if you guys are trying to
pull me down or fcuk me upside down ok.

I'll be back to be one of the top again.
Believe me.

v, where'd you go,
i know i cant be strong,
i know im weak.
if you're here with me now,
things would get better and more different.
i still love you as always.
i miss you.

All the best! CHIONG AH!

2008-10-30T00:56:00.004+08:00

Yippee!~ <-- This sounds uber gay please.

Anyway, to all the A' level takers,
ALL THE BEST TO YOU GUYS!
Claim all your distinctions and whatever
and glorify yourself once again!

Ken, DO COME BACK WITH A DISTINCTION :P

Probably you guys ever heard of people
saying :" GOOD LUCK ". I seriously think that
luck only consist of 5% in the papers, be it lucky
or unlucky, it all comes down to YOU.

You're the only one to score well in the papers,
not luck for goodness sake ;)
So, all the best! sounds much nicer aye? :)

Anyway, this upcoming sunday I'll be at the
Marina Barrage as there is a GRAND OPENING
(bullshit) for it. So, I'll be there as a safety kayaker.
Anyone coming along? D:

alrights. off to sleep now with informality!
nights faggots!

2008-10-27T13:11:00.003+08:00

Ok decided not to re-edit my posts due to some
mistakes or whatever. lol.
SORRY JOSHUA! YOU DID SMS ME! HAHAHAHA!

WELCOME BACK CLARENCE!
Yes, finally I'm back to my blog and start out to rant
or whine at everything and anything. heh :DD
So, this week is actually my independent week, so,
I'll be lazing at home, finish my school work and
then off to slackkkkk.

Upcoming and the following sunday will be my first
time being a saftey kayaker and to clock my distance!
Indeed it's a one stone kill two bird thingy. lawlll~

Anyone misses me? HAHAHHAA! WTF?!
Anyway, I'm cutting down on my smoking already, it has
been a major improvement! It takes me about 7 days to
finish one packet already. Thank god that I'm recovering
from my withdrawal symptoms.

Well, few things to add on is that I'm failing in my school D:
hope some kind souls to push me further on. gahh~
Oh yea guys, ANYONE GOT NINTENDO WII?
I WANNA BUY YOUR WII! AND PLAY ROCKBAND
AND GUITAR HEROES!! :DDDD

ok. lastly, fucked up, I was issued a fine of $200 due to
littering on the fucking floor at ECP. fuck that fatimah.

THANK YOU TO ALL!

2008-10-17T23:49:00.003+08:00

sup?

18th birthday over already and its just another day passes by.

Feeling kinda glad and rather down even though its like
5 days since my birthday, so, Im gonna blog everything
out like OMGWTFBBQl337PWNZ0R!

Well, Im glad that numerous of you guys and readers out
there who wished me a happy birthday.
Now, Here are the names (Descending by time recieved)

Rui Ying
Ken
Yuling
Eunice
Hup Lian
Guo Ren
Jiale
Ye Kai
Jolyn
Titien
Wilson Lee
Siew Ting
Valerie
Juitwen
Xi Jie
Chien Juen
Cindy Keong
Chu Hong
Jaclyn
James
Yew Tinn
Yi Mei

I WANNA SAY A BIG BIG
THANK YOU TO ALL OF THE ABOVE
FOR REMEMBERING MY BIRD DAY! :D

and why aint joshua's name inside? BRO! WHY YOU NEVER
MESSAGE ME HUH?! DDDDD:

gonna post again! DOTA TIME!

2008-10-07T14:26:00.004+08:00

Maybe - Secondhand Serenade
one of the songs which is in my player.
________________________________________

Didn't you want to hear
The sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear
The expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
And I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
And I'm here to sing
About the things that mattered
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you, to you, to you
And I was crying alone tonight
And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So just come back I'll make it better than it ever was
I'll make it better than it ever was

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

2008-10-06T08:48:00.003+08:00

Do you believe that i'm still loving you?
and i'll be waiting for that single day where you'll just
forget him. Cast him away, and maybe just come to me.
I wanna just be with you, I'm le' sorry.

2008-10-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

LOL!
Here are some of the funny videos
which I've found over YouTube for you guys to enjoy!

Zippo Lighter Advertisement

X-Box Advertisement!

2008-10-01T03:04:00.003+08:00

guys! this will be funny for some!

Mr Tan Qing Wen's testicles named Wilson.
and he likes the name of it! cool right?

_____________________________________

clarence i need you badly. i'm le' sorry. says:
your atapchee called wilson?

QINGWEN XIII (̲.+̲̲̲[̲__]̲▫:̲▫) says:
yes!

birthday celebration for wanhao!

2008-09-27T15:54:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO
KOH WAN HAO XAVIER.
18 YEARS OLD, SAW THE WORD OLD?
AHAHHAHAA!

Just came back from a birthday celebration at Jurong Point.
It's Wan Hao's birthday today, as usual, I am the bad guy again!
Wondering why huh? Cause the rest of the peeps asked me to
smash a slice of cake onto his face and since its a one year event,
so, yeah, must be enthusiastic a lil' and give no mercy to it.

aye.. im kinda tired. later will blog out.

stay tuned.

2008-09-26T21:22:00.005+08:00

What to do on a upcoming fine sunny sunday?
OF COURSE! ITS A KAYAKING DAY!

Upcoming expedition is sunday, round ubin "tour".
lawl. I don't know why am I so excited bout it.
Probably it's because of the distance!
22KM. Kinda tuff' for the newbies and others, but well,
I believe that it's not gonna daunt me or anything,
will be posting more on it during sunday night :D

Well, nowadays, kinda stressed out in studies.
Thanks to Seck, a bloody mofo teacher whom teaches
us I.Studies. Intergrated Studies which sucks like douchebags.

No joke, I'll absolutely give two thumbs up to rate that
it sucked shit.

What Your Shamrock Says About You

You express yourself well - you are very verbal. You are good at perceiving the world and understanding people.

At times you can be moody and lack direction. You have an artist's temperament.

You consider yourself a lucky person. Luck always seems to be on your side.

You are traditional, easy going, and appreciative of the simple things in life.

The Shamrock Personality Test

What's Sexy About Your Name

You are sexy because you have an almost universal sex appeal. Many people desire you.

You are a huge flirt, and you can't help but come on to people.

You love attention, whether it's from your partner, friends, or strangers.

In fact, nothing makes you feel less sexy than being ignored.

You tend to be interested in whoever is the most interested in you.

You are attracted to people who dote on you. You like to be worshipped.

What's Sexy About Your Name?

You Are Disturbingly Profound

You're contemplative, thoughtful, and very intense.

Taking time to figure out the meaning of life is a priority for you.

Because you're so introspective, you often react in ways that surprise people.

No one can really understand how you are on the inside... and that disturbs them.

Are You Disturbingly Profound or Profoundly Disturbing?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.

You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines.

You should major in:

Marketing
Psychology
Design
Cognitive Science
Economics
Photography

What Should You Major In?

2008-09-23T09:20:00.001+08:00

i'm still loving you.
love, me.

Independent week.

2008-09-22T02:55:00.003+08:00

whoa..
Can't believe that I'm still lethargic even after 7 hours of sleep.

Gosh..

Anyway, its time for me to move on to another phase of my life
where I'll need to be more sensible and able to control my
"god-damned-shit-head attitude problem".
I can't find a reason to spark out troubles already.
No matter what, there isn't any reason!
or either, STARING! WTF?

~~fuckin'~~ childish man... gosh..

Well, back to the topic.
Independent Week (starts from this monday)
It's seriously stupid, the reason that I've gave such comments
is that, I need to go back to school for 2 days to catch some lessons.
If so, is that independent week?
NO WAY MAN!

lawl.
So, independent week is actually Bullshit Week!
but rather, there's time for me to catch up on my previous
unfinished work and hand it up by next more weeks :D
hope i can do it in time!

ok, ciaos, going to sleep now and wakey at 7am!
gonna go heavy photoshooting and videography!
NIGHTS GUYS!

bloody muker fucks.

2008-09-20T12:32:00.004+08:00

fuck you guys.

bloody fucking idiots which

act like one fucking cute or whatever
shit which you're not.

stop being someone you're not

or either stop being like a fucking douchebag.

O RLY?!

hell yeah, rly.

2008-09-20T02:53:00.005+08:00

its 2.54am in the morn now.

Can't really sleep due to the fact that I've just

came back from canal and from my delicious

breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner-cum-supper meal.

As for an addition on what ruth sent me via Sharing Folders

at MSN, so, here it is.
Some of our sexy videos and sexy photos of me.

LAWL!

THIS IS JAME'S ARTWORK! ZAI!
DOING THE LIMBO ROCK!WOW! JOLYN AND YIMEI ARE SO HARDWORKING!STRONG SIA ME! LOLOLOL KIDDING!

IM CUTTING SOME SHIT WIRE FOR MY PROJECT!

HERE COMES THE FINAL TEASER! HAHAHA!
PLEASE VIEW THIS!

SORRY BREN, I POST THIS! LOL :P

2008-09-19T21:04:00.001+08:00

Boom de ah dah!
HAHAHAHA!

I love the part when Richard Machowicz
took a shot of his "futuristic" weapons!

damn nice!

anyway, will be blogging at 12am++
stay tuned alright? D:

2008-09-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

18 September 2008

Went to school today for SketchUp lesson,
didnt really excel well in my other subject rather
than some lessons which deals with teamwork and
computer based stuff.. gahhh. I feel so shitty, guess
I'm gonna fail soon.. anyone can bother to even motivate me?

So, talking bout sketchup, I'm currently doing on a project
and the requirements is to create 1 Robot and 2 Sculpture.
This requirement is only for 1st week, and now, the new
project is to actually create a 3D model of your handphone,
do include all textures, fonts, numbers, colours, pictures and
whatever is inside! Including the bumps, holes and dusts!

Its kinda difficult to do sketchup luh! shit...
Anyway, I wanna tell this thing to all.

Let bygones be bygones.
Do not bear any grudge between friends.

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17 September 2008

well, had CCS, it was all about debating between
Fine Arts and Designers.

MOST of the fine artist is romantic and impulsive on anything,
whereas designers are more logical and neat.

So, we started off by debating what is the differences in these two.
and i was the first one to tackle the other team (14people).
my team consist of 10 people only.
I told the proposition (we're the opposition) that designers took
ideas from us, the fine artists, as they only brushes up our work
and after that, they claim the work to be theirs.

Fine artists like me, have my total freedom to do anything without
needing to accomodate or either cater to the customer's need.
Whereas designers need to cater to the buyer, and this is why they're
lacking of creativity and freedom. Some of you guys might argue
that "We, as designers, actually uses our own creativity and create
a masterpiece out of nothing!"
Ok, a note to add. You're able to use your creativity, but you're
restricted to alot of things from the customer and do your work
have texture?

Sorry, I dont believe that a computer generated stuff has texture.

As for fine artists, we do not need to follow our customer's order!
we paint, we draw and we create things with alot of
details, texture, and "romance" into our art piece. Can designers
do that onto their product? no way man.

Proposition replied :" If you think that you can do without us designers
and still complaining about our creativity is improvised from fine artists,
then why not you guys take off your clothes now and dont wear anything? "

I replied :"If I were to take off all my clothes now, walk down the street
and got caught by the police, are you going to compensate on my jail time
and bail me out? I think you got my wrong idea for the previous sentences.
Designers 'sell' their works to the company, for instance, Zara.
You guys are marketing yourself and your works out, whereas we do not!
We can just put our painting at our houses or even workplace, but we
do not market it out, unless the buyer is keen to get it, then we will
put on a price for it, but we dont go around marketing it out!"

there's lots more to this debate. gahhh!

Its the first time in CCS, where I didnt fall asleep!
Oh yea, I think I did well in CCS debating (first ever debate).

2008-09-17T23:10:00.003+08:00

this is the results from a recent test which i've took
over the net. you guys can take the test too :D
well, here is the results!

ENFP - The "Advocate"

ENFPs are introspective, values-oriented, inspiring, social and extremely expressive. They actively send their thoughts and ideas out into the world as a way to bring attention to what they feel to be important, which often has to do with ethics and current events. ENFPs are natural advocates, attracting people to themselves and their cause with excellent people skills, warmth, energy and positivity. ENFPs are described as creative, resourceful, assertive, spontaneous, life-loving, charismatic, passionate and experimental.

http://www.mypersonality.info/personality-types/
the above is the link!
come on, take this test to try it out, quite accurate :D

2008-09-17T01:58:00.002+08:00

this time round, its the end of the story.
i knew you wont be mine, but i've tried.
thank you.

existentialism

2008-09-16T02:56:00.003+08:00

can anyone knows the reason for our existance in life?
can anyone knows the purpose in life?

THIS POST IS NOT EMO,
BUT A ANALYTICAL QUESTION.

so, these are the question for the day.

i want to know the reason and everything else.
you guys may email your thoughts via email to me.
dont worry, my replies are gonna be full length pages :)
and everyone's gonna get a different ones.

as i've been thinking of this word for some time.
and the meaning behind it. thats why im gonna
pop this question out of nowhere (yes, im random)

anyway, im skipping 1 lesson tomorrow due to some
homework which i didn't do, gah..
can someone push me in academic wise?

i fuckin' miss you after that last dinner.
fuck this feeling.

KAYAK COACH TO BE :D

2008-09-15T21:39:00.003+08:00

well guys, im back to blogging.
and seriously, i hate to do my workload from
my school, not only its stressful, but its also killing me.

probably i need to have loads of time mangement courses
or whatever skills to control my time well.
i'll reall feel fucked up once i cant control it.
for instance, my projects now are piled up and became
a huge mountain in such a short period of time.

damn..

anyway, good news :D
I AM KAYAKING 3T!
AND A TRAINER 1T!

so, what is 3T or 1T?
Kayaking 3T = Kayaking 3Stars to be.
Trainer 1T = Kayaking Trainer 1star to be.

well. i need to clock 16KM x 10 Journeys for
my 3stars :D but that requirement is actually for 4stars.
so, i dont wanna do a double job, thats why :D

and coaching is fun. really fun!
you can experience alot of different people from
all age and sizes! LOL!
but one thing about kayaking is that you need to actually
dedicate your time onto the sport. BUT, you can learn
leadership during kayaking and basic first aids!
so, why not?

anyone wanna kayak :D
join the group of kayakers like me! :D

2008-09-07T01:58:00.003+08:00

well.

some photos to be uploaded.

I MUST GIVE CREDITS TO

KEN FOR SENDING ME THESE!

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ARENA PHOTOS!

MORE TO COME!

2008-09-06T11:25:00.002+08:00

I came back from a photoshoot event which is organised
by CHEC - O School. the dance school which is situated
at the same building and founded by my principal (CHEC).

anyway, life is as usual, kinda exciting, kinda boring, all sorts
of emotions can be put inside this blog post.
nowadays i've been mingling with my friends and doing
alot of my homework and thats why you cant really see me
online or either blogging. workload is really tough.
luckily, i didnt apply for a part-time job.

or else..

*hur hur..*

LOLOLOLOL!
and nowadays, i've been tuning into loads of oldies.
know why? CAUSE IM OLD! heh. the real reason is that
i wanna selude myself into the oldies music as there's
more meaning compared to the current ones, not to say
that the current ones have limited or no meaning at all.
but rather, its kinda noisy and meaningless, nevertheless,
there's still some good songs such as

Thunder - Boys Like Girls
Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

well. listen to this 2 songs, they're really good!
but if you guys wanna listen to oldies..
then, you can ask me for some of them.

okok, back to the topic of homework.
i've finally done finished my Digital Imaging workshop!
assessed by Nadia already and she told me
"Clarence, you are a person who uses your brain
but becareful of who you mix, you're a A's student,
but, i dont want to see you failing in the end. buck up! "

ok. shit right? lolol. no worries, will be pulling my socks.
and im now stuck with 2 subjects in my hand.
3D and 2D.
this 2 is giving me hell load of headache.
no joke.
imagine that your eyes lack of red pigment ( colour deficiency)
and you're expected to do a fucking colour chart
and a bloody colour wheel. (2D)

and for 3D, we got so much of DI already, now need
to cut cut cut for the fucking 3D and do a presentation board
and whatever for the lesson, and whats worse?
MASS PRESENTATION TO OTHER CLASS. WTF?
oh god, i cant believe it. damn...

well, i think im ending here, gonna do my work or either
fall back to sleep. LOL! lately, i've not been getting enough rest.
if you see me on the road, just pinch me and you can even
see my reaction is like :"..."
HAHAHAHAHA!

OK!
CIAOS GUYS!

DIDNT GET INTO MINISTRY OF SOUND [MOS]!

2008-08-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

HOLY SHIT!
initially, i, brendon and jaclyn was supposed
to meet at 9.20. but as usual, jaclyn was late.
lolololol :P anyway, we chatted and travelled
to outram park and met james and titien.

after that, we went down straight to MOS outside
to meet zhiguang! total of 6 people. but since i am
underage and yet using someone's driving license
to get in, so, i try to get in first!
BUT! WTF?! the bouncer look at the license and said
:" your face not very clear, got other identification? "
i said :" no, i dont have. "
so, he checked the whole of my wallet lor. wtf?
and FOUND MY LIBRARY CARD!
so, now, he said :"which is your card huh?"
"why you got 2 name?"
LOL!

ok, then i just walk off. lololol!
then tried Zouk with my friend's international student's visa!
but to no avail also. great..
i felt friggin down and disappointed that why am i born
at such a late part of the year. gahh...
but well, my friends all cheered me up. saying that
there's still got 1 more club, Double O.

cabbed there and queued up for entry.
finally, my turn to be checked.
then the female bouncer LET ME IN!
WOOOHOO! i was SUPER ELATED!
so i paid the cover fee and almost went in already.
then my zhiguang said :" CLAR! DONT PAY! "
i was like wtf?
i asked for a refund and then went out of the club.
so, i asked my friends why dont go in.
the reason is because got 3 is UNDERAGE!
double O club minimum age is 20 years old.
so, 3 lies under 20. whereas "my" driving license is
already passed 20 years old! LOL!

nevermind. we're like thinking.
hmm, lets try MOS AGAIN!
walked from Double O to MOS.. and the bouncer
still didnt change. wtf? damn lah.
then i suggested to go to The Arena.
another club, or either go Fusion (not phusion mind you).
so, asked around for directions to get to Arena.
and then. woohooo, reached!
asked the bouncer on what's the minimum age to be
admitted, and the answer was 18 yrs old.
cool, now everyone can get in!

so, we went to the bouncer, said 6 people.
and he checked each and everyone's IC thoroughly.
and YAY! WE GOT IN AFTER SUCH A LONG RUN!

lemme describe the ambience and the atmosphere.
Arena's ambience is not bad, will make you feel
that you're gonna come back again!
as for the atmosphere. its really GOOD luh.
everyone is into the dancing and the bartender
did the what diablo or what lamborghini drink!
super cool! heh.

and well, i lazy to type already.
gonna complete this story tomorrow :D

STAY TUNED!